It's been way too long since I last blogged. This blog is actually really pretty special to me and although I don't post as often, I still do visit my own blog to read my archive. I've really grown and matured since secondary 2 I must say. Life changed so drastically, I have no idea how I managed to adapt to all this so quickly unconsciously. From a major hardcore kpop fan that didn't exactly really bother about results to someone that is holding on to several leadership positions and struggling to pass CAs and actually feeling down when failing CAs (that are mind you, not counted in ppr. HAHHA.) I still remember how the first question that comes to mind when a piece of 'graded assignment' was given to us in SN was, "Is this counted in ppr?" Results, results, results. The only thing that mattered.
It has only been one year and 4 months in CJ. A little less than that actually, since we only started school in february last year. But I feel like I've made much more precious memories in this short span of time spent in CJ than the 10 years in SN. But I still love SN as my second home for 10 years, I love how SN have molded me into the person I am today. The values and all. Maybe, it's just because life is way more eventful in JC. Boyfriends, the stress of retaining, joining a performing arts CCA, SYF, CJCelebrates etc.
And honestly, I have no idea what I'm talking about now. It's way too fucking hot in Singapore, and it rains at 3-4pm everyday and I have a motherfucking headache.
Talk about digressing, really.
And so, ironically, the post below is the post that I've typed out the night I broke up with Isaac, and this post will be about yiheng. Because I thought my blog deserves to know this. (And I deserve to read about how I'm feeling right now next time, because I know I will be reading this in the future.)
The question that most people have been asking is "How did y'all meet?"
I realised, this relationship sounds way too much like a manga. (But I like this way, HAHA.) Okay so, the first time we met was during CCA Bazaar. Guzheng's booth was strategically placed in the canteen with all the other sports CCAs, and right next to Football (WITH A WHOLE LOT OF SMELLY AND NOISY E-WAH E-WAH BOYS) and right opposite judo. And I doubt anyone even heard the phina playing the guzheng with all that noise. But point is, I suppose I'm the only one that was capable of being loud and shameless to scream out to people that afternoon to ask them to join guzheng. And I only had one motive that day: TO GET GUYS TO JOIN GUZHENG. I MEAN HELLO, WE HAVE PERCUSSION NOW. YOU CAN PLAY THE CHEENA DRUMS OKAY. So I was basically screaming out to almost every guy that walked past my guzheng booth and yiheng just so happened to be one of them. (If I didn't remember wrongly, I think that day was one day? or a few days after breaking up with Isaac. I don't know what my life is trying to do to me. But I think I'm an extremely lucky girl.) And I actually treated all the J1 guys the same way with by being overly-enthusiastic in trying to get them to write their name and contact details down on the sign-up sheet. I remember telling yiheng "YOU DON'T PUT GUZHENG AS AT LEAST 3 CHOICE I WILL HUNT YOU DOWN." hahahah. And he didn't. tsktsk. I didn't actually take any particular notice of him that day although I do remember him because he kept coming back to the booth because he didn't know it was a no-commitment sign up sheet and kept wanting to cancel his name lol. So yup, that summarises how we met. But things didn't happen till a morning a few days later where I was accompanying phina at the piano in the morning and he came along to play the piano. I HAD NO BLOODY IDEA HE PLAYED THE PIANO SO WELL MAN. HAHAHA. Was blown away when he played jay's 説好的幸福呢？on the piano with so much emotions and feels. HAHA. And I was like just totally amazed at how he could play any jay song that I liked. AND GODAMNIT, HE CAN SPEAK BETTER CHINESE THAN ME. MY SAVIOR IN A SCHOOL WITH PEOPLE THAT CAN'T SPEAK A PROPER SENTENCE IN CHINESE. And so I tweeted about him quite a lot, referring to him as the piano dude (and angry bird hahaha). And usually, people in my life that I take note of and tweet about usually don't become my friend. but heh look what happened this time. And the meeting that actually changed things was a friday night after guzheng where our paths crossed at the piano area again and I was like so excited to ask if he could play 紅塵客站 on the piano, AND DAMNIT. HE COULD. SO WELL. And he asked for my number, that was basically how things changed, because everything changes when you text someone regularly. Although not all the time. And we were actually just becoming real close BFFs with all the common interests and everything. And a week after meeting up almost every morning in school, we went out on a study date. And that saturday changed everything. I mean seriously, things progressed so fast that saturday I had no idea how that could even happen. It started out as something as innocent as two close friends going out to study together and then at night we held hands and walked through the crowd in Orchard. like. whuuuuuut? But everything felt so natural, and right. And that indescribable feeling that I got when he could tell everything that I was feeling in kinokuniya was amazing. And so, after that saturday, we both knew that there were mutual feelings but I didn't want to say anythings. I mean honestly, after just ending one relationship, I didn't want to commit again. I was really afraid of commitments, I'm scared that I'd lose my friendship again. I didn't want that to happen. And so we were ambiguous for a month or so? Technically, not very ambiguous because everyone already thought that we're together because we meet up every single morning in the piazza except for the times where he has morning pes and i have morning lessons. And the fact that we almost always have common breaks didn't help. I still get so blown away whenever he plays the piano for me. I mean, hello, someone is composing music for you on the piano. How to not get touched? And he knows how to say all the right things to make my heart flutter. It's scary. And the way he's so sweet, and romantic doesn't really help either. I still remember that day where I was just randomly talking about how I really like the song secrets by one republic and he actually waited 30 minutes for me after his cca for guzheng to end and told he has a surprise for me. Went down to the piano and he played secrets (SO BLOODY WELL) on the piano for me and I couldn't stop smiling for the entire day after that. I mean, to have someone take notice of such a simple and random thing that you said is a nice feeling.
And I officially said yes on good friday when we went out. It was at night at the esplanade, by the singapore river, in front of the pretty night city skyline, where he kissed me and asked. Talk about creating perfect moments.
And so, this is the start to my manga-ish relationship. I hope this goes well.
(And today is exactly one month after that saturday. hehehe.)
?You're like a queen and beautiful
7:24 PM
Tuesday, April 2, 2013