
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
It's been so long since I last blogged.
I miss everything before CJ. The old me with no commitments. The girl that sits on the second seat in the second row from the left at the right side of class in secondary four. I miss her. I miss the old blogger layout. With only small tiny little red box for you to type in.
I miss blogging more than once a day with random kpop shit. I miss fangirling over kpop. It's been more than two months since I last checked AKP. To think I couldn't survive one day without updating myself just last year, and well, the start of this year too.
Too much changed in this short period of time.
And now, I failed math. Failed H2 math for promos.
Good job.
Overall S though, which means I still have hope of promoting. If I don't screw up GP. Which is near impossible. I don't know. Didn't really feel anything, I wasnt sad or anything when I saw my 38/100. But I just suddenly got all emotional when Winnie started crying. She cried not because she minded retaining but because she doesn't want to be separated from T28. And yeah, that makes me sad because T28 is really the best class I've been in so far in all my life.
And to be honest, I really can't imagine myself being a retainee. Cannot imagine myself being judged, labeled and classified as a revisiting student. Even if people don't judge me for being a retainee, I'll judge myself for it. I know how my class got along so well with rini, who retained and she's just like us with no difference, but when it comes to myself, I just really can't get over it.
It's a tad too early to be emotional and imagine myself in a new class next year but the fear of retaining just skyrocketed.
?You're like a queen and beautiful
8:06 PM