Life, has been busy. And busy, is just an understatement. Sleep doesn't even feel like sleep anymore. It just feels like I've gone for a short nap and when I wake up, it's a new day again. But then again, it's not like I'm only surviving on two or three hours of sleep, I actually do sleep for six to eight hours depending on the amount of homework due the next day. So why the hell is this happening?

I've adapted to JC much faster than I thought. I remember having lunch with Gen and Peck Yee back in sec 3(4) in sakae sushi at J8. And they were saying how I'm going to die in JC because I've been in an all girls school for all my life. But I guess, they were wrong, and I was wrong too. Being in a co-ed school feels rather normal. Almost as if there's no difference at all. I mean, of course there's all those stupid eye candy, rumours about who and who dating crap. But all those only serves to make school life a teeny bit more exciting doesn't it. :)

I still don't quite like the lecture-tutorial system because I stone 90% of the time during lectures and learn nothing. I love my math lecturer/tutor though. He's so cute. AHAHA. Like some small boy. And because I actually like him, and he's so freaking nice, I've been doing all my math homeowork, and getting full marks for all FAs, and topping the class for the CA. I should have nicer teachers for like other subjects to motivate me to do work. uhfg.

I think I've changed a whole lot from secondary to JC. I mean, I've always wanted to be the leader kind of thing but never had the chance to in SN. I guess because I'm just never good enough in SN. I'm starting to understand what Mr. Julius said about the go into a good school and feel bad about yourself, go into a not so good school and feel good about yourself thing. I mean at least here in CJ, I was given the chance to become the AHTC, which I hope, would give me even more opportunities in the future, although I doubt so. I'm still thinking of a way to get people to do their duties without feeling bad. I mean, everytime I go up to them and say, "Hey, can you sweep the floor?" I feel bad. Like wtf, they're not obliged to clean the fucking floor even though it's their duty for the day. Uhfg.

Midyear Exams are in 4 weeks and I still don't understand shit about chem and bio. I mean I often think I'd understand it if I take the time to go and read through and digest the information. But then again, when I actually have the time, I'm sitting here typing out this post. It's 15% of promotional grade. I can't afford to fail. I can't afford to disappoint anyone again. I can't afford to disappoint myself again.

Talking about failing, I failed my grade 8 piano exam by 7 marks. I wasn't sad, I mean. I totally expected failing. I didn't even bother to practice and I knew I screwed it when I waked out of the examination room. I still love the piano, but now it's just a useless instrument taking up space in my room.

I can't believe I joined guzheng ensemble. Talk about not wanting to take up another instrument. But I kind of like it I guess, at least I actually kind of love the song we are learning. Thank god, we are not learning some kind of stupid boring song. I thought it was easy at first but it's not. ): I still can't do the yao zhi thing until now. How now brown cow?

CJ's canteen food are awesome. I love how the whole class sits together during breaks and eat together. It's something completely different from SN where people either stay in class or go with their own recess gang. I like this class thing.

I kind of love my classmates. I thank god, for giving me a nice deskmate (that appreciates kpop too).

PW will be the 'cause of my downfall. And I just realised I've yet to start on my stupid PI draft that is due on monday. uhfg.

Life is like temple run, you never knew when you're going to have to turn next. You never know what kind of obstacles lie in place of you in the near future because you can't see it. But you have to keep going, or you'll die. And no one is going to stop and help you. Because you're all alone.

Even the longest day only have 24 hours, press on.