
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
And so results were out yesterday. I really didn't feel much about it until I was third in line to collect my results from Tang. And suddenly, everything hit me. What if I do so badly I can't get into a JC. What if I do realllllly well? :D What if I cry once I see my results.
Nothing of the above happened.
I wasn't calm. Tang told me that it's okay that I didn't do that well and the important thing is that I keep working harder next time. When she said that, I guessed that I didn't do exceptionally well already.
Well, I didn't do well.
Raw score: 13 (L1R5), 9 points after deduction of bonus points. I was on the verge of crying, but I didn't. Well, I was really happy that I didn't fail my Lit, and I FREAKING GOT A B3 OKAY! IN YOUR FACE, IAN TAN. STOP FAILING MY ESSAYS. HE'S FOREVER GIVING ME 10/25 FOR MY ESSAYS. IN YOUR FACE, I GOT A B3.
Yes, apart from that. It's quite disappointing that I don't have a single A1 appearing on my result slip. I have 4 As though. But all of them are 'second-class distinctions'. A2s. Kind of sucks. Although I do have 1 miserable A1, which was my normal chinese grade that I got back this time last year. The good thing is, my lowest grade is a B3 and not a B4. And I don't have a single C appearing on my results slip. A rather mediocre result. It's not exactly bad, but it's definitely not good either.
I was really upset. So after tearing open the sealed document and realizing that my L1R5 is only a miserable 13, I walked away immediately and left school. I really wanted to cry. But after getting home, my mum was happy with my results. I don't know why. And my dad was so amusing. The first thing he asked was if I could get into a JC. I said yes, and he's like "CAN GO JC VERY GOOD ALREADY WHAT!" And I was like, "Why are your expectations so low." HAHA. I guess this is what you get when your older brother didn't even get into a poly. Oh well.
I think the very reason why I was so upset was because I kind of guessed all my good friends did better than me. Maybe, I just really don't like how I'm always not doing as well. But, after thinking about it. I'm actually just not as smart as them, not as hard working as them. That IS my standard. It's like PSLE all over again. The only difference is that we don't get to go the same school regardless of our results.
This is where we will part, my dear friends.
SAJC will be my first choice! ^^
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5:42 PM
Spent a lonely countdown at home once again, just like every year. Parents fell asleep before 12, and my brother was probably partying away somewhere in town. This sucks ):
I want next year's countdown to be special. I want to spend it with someone special.
?You're like a queen and beautiful
8:20 PM