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BELLCURVE PLEASE CURVE SOME MORE SO THAT I GET AN A1. PLEASE ):<

OH THE GODS ABOVE. HELP ME.

SPENT THE DAY LAZING AT HOME INSTEAD OF GOING OUT. WELL, I MEAN EVERYONE IS BUSY MUGGING. CAN'T EXPECT ANYONE TO PARTY WITH ME WHEN IT'S 12 DAYS AWAY FROM THE BIG Os. BUT STILL, I KNOW NO ONE VISITS THIS BLOG, APART FROM JASMINE MY FAITHFUL STALKER. BUT, THANK YOU EVERYONE WHO WISHED ME.

ZITING, WHO WAS THE FIRST. BECAUSE SHE CLAIMED THAT MY KOREAN BIRTHDAY IS OVER AFTER 11PM IN OUR TIME. HAHAHAHA :) AND SHE'LL BE ANGRY IF SHE'S NOT FIRST. THEN GEN, JASMINE, JANE, FANNY.

THANK YOU FOR NOT FORGETTING MY BIRTHDAY. AND EVERYONE ELSE. WHO TWEETED ME, TEXTED ME, AND WISHED ME ON FB. (ALTHOUGH I STRONGLY BELIEVE THAT THOSE THAT WISHED ME ON FB WAS REMINDED BY FB THAT IT'S MY BIRTHDAY TODAY.) I STILL THANK YOU ALL.

SONIA TEXTED ME - "SHIT. I FORGOT IT'S TRINI'S BIRTHDAY TODAY." AHAHAHAHA. TRUE. I WAS WONDERING IF SHE HAD FORGOTTEN SINCE SHE DIDNT TEXT ME AT 12. NEITHER DID I RECEIVE A TEXT IN THE MORNING WHEN I WOKE UP. WAS A TEEENY BIT DISAPPOINTED. BUT OH WELL. TOUCHED THAT MY PIANO TEACHER ACTUALLY KNOWS MY BIRTHDAY LOL.

WANTED VENETIA TO SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME. SO I REMINDED HER JUST NOW. SHE THOUGHT THAT IT WAS TOMORROW? ): AHAHAHA. AND I THOUGHT THAT JESSIE FORGOT TOO. AND THERE CAME HER TEXT AT 11.50. HAHAHAHA. THANK VERY MUCH MY BAOBEIS<3

LOVE YOU ALLLLLLLL

I WANT TO COMBINE ALL MY 11:11 WISHES THAT I NEVER USED AND MY BIRTHDAY WISH THIS YEAR. TO WISH THAT MY FUTURE TURNS OUT ALRIGHT EVEN IF I DON'T GO TO A JC AND END UP IN A POLY. MAY I DO DECENTLY WELL FOR THE O-LEVELS AND GET INTO A NOT BAD JC. OR TAKE THE COURSE THAT I WANT IN POLY. IF I END UP IN POLY. AND ALSO. GOD. PLEASE LET ME LOSE 10 KG BEFORE PROM AND MY KOREA TRIP. I WILL THANK YOU VERY MUCH. ALTHOUGH I AM NOT A HOLY PERSON.

SWEEEEET SIXTEEN :)

Thank you for being my second home these 10 years. It's been a long while. Thank you for giving me a safe place to grow up in, to grow both mentally and physically well. I still remember the first day where I stepped in, hesistant. (god, why is this school so big!) I really thank the gods above, that I made the choice of enrolling into SN. God knows what would have become of me if I chose marymount instead of St. Nicks. Things would be completely different. I wouldn't have met all the people that mean so much to me right now in my life.

Primary one and two zoomed past in a blur. I thought that getting band 1s for all three subjects in Primary one and two was nothing. Like it was just meant to be. Until I realised my cousins were actually getting band 2s and 3s in their primary school. Maybe, I am just that little bit more intelligent than them. Though, it is indeed St. Nicks that made me feel bad about myself in secondary school, because everyone around was suddenly so much smarter. But, I wonder if I have great memory, or is it because these memories are so precious to me that I can't forget them, they're just stuck there, in some part of my brain. Chinese lessons in primary one with 周老師, where she used to call out 一級棒！and we would go 一級胖！and then the whole class would just erupt with laughter. Miss suelynn Tan, that got married and became Mrs Singh after a few years as my form teacher in primary one. The teacher that made me monitor and then complained to my mum that i abused power. (Yeah, like a primary one kid can totally do that.) Or maybe I really did. But she was a nice teacher nonetheless. And Miss Fong, my math teacher, that spoke as if she was talking to an ant instead of a whole class. A show and tell lesson where I played a book 3 piece that was less than a minute long on the piano in Primary one purity. Thank you, Mdm Toh, my primary two form teacher, that made me monitor again, and I hated abacus lessons -,- Okay I don't remember much about primary two except for the fact that I kind of got pissed off with my co-monitor because she was the one making all the noise instead of getting the class to be quiet. LOL. I was such a responsible monitor. ^^ OH YES. writing the names of people that were noisy on the board. That used to be fun, until I realised how retarded that was.

Primary three and four with the same classmates. Met partner (Clarrisa), and yi nan wang that Taiwan drama first started airing on TV at 4.30pm. Was totally retarded and childish and immature. Miss Kasey Heng made me monitor again in Primary four and I highly suspect it was because I offered to give my whole huge stack of memo paper to the class for some activity. And I think I failed 90% of the mental sums test that year. Playing ludo in class was the 'in' thing back then!

Primary five and six were the most precious years I guess. Met Sonia, Sarah, Sheryl Long and Lianne. The people that made a difference in my life. The ridiculously childish us, that innocent us that we can only think about. The times where we spent the Thursday long recesses in the library, in the living room, in the canteen, at the care corner, playing hide and seek at the garden thingy on the first level, over the hedge, throwing coins down from the balcony of our class and into the 飲水思源 pond to wish for a hundred marks for spelling, dictation and 聽寫. The begging Mrs Hum for a 5 minutes early recess so that we can run down four stories to buy orange bowl. Our laksa day, which is the every 23rd of the month. Sarah, who can't take chilli, and yet still buys laksa, eats like two mouths or so and stops -,- I never knew why she did that. Mrs Patil, that embarrassed me completely in front of the whole class. "God suspended him in the air?!" Something I cannot and never will forget. Mrs Patil, that called Lianne "you sickening girl" almost every lesson, and got pissed at Natalie every now and then.

And of course, Mr. Julius. The best form teacher I ever had. He emphasised so much on the importance of character, that grades is nothing without a good character. Giving us real red packets with money in it during chinese new year. Thank you for giving me tips during the actual exam. Never knew teachers could do that. Thank you for praising me, for my honesty when I told you there was a calculation error in my marks that made my math CA2 result drop from 50/100 to 49/100. Thank you, although I don't have much integrity left. Okay so, I've always found him rather hot, even at the age of 11/12. But I didn't say it out loud and jumped on the bandwagon and called him gross and stuff back then. But ohhhhh well, Sonia admitted that she found him hot too!! :D You're the best form teacher anyone can get.

Secondary one, was much like primary six. Except that gen, amanda and marianne entered my life. Amanda that made me the vulgar girl I am now. The one that influenced me to curse every now and then. Gen that made a life changing difference in my life. The innocent me, became a girl that love yaoi and a slightly homophobic me into someone that loves gay love. Secondary one was when kpop entered my life too. Another life changing experience. Since the secondary one D&T lesson where I saw the DBSK wallpaper on the computer and entered fandom. I'm still in the fandom now, and I'm not leaving anytime. Although, I'm no longer a cassie and a full-fledged E.L.F. Sheryl left my life, and we don't even talk now, even when I go to wisdom and spend my recesses there. Nothing, as if we were never the best of friends, as if we are strangers. But I still thank you sheryl, for being my very first best friend, and playing audition with me. I still remember how your house looks like.

Secondary two, marked the change of my fandom from DBSK to SJ. Topped the class in a test for the very very first time in my life for history. 27/30. This made me choose history as my elective for combined-humans. what a wrong decision. Ziting, that entered my life. Someone that I never thought I would become friends with, and we're such close and good friends right now. Went through the worst friendship break up ever with marianne. Cried like crazy and got over it eventually. Things ended up the same as how it ended up with sheryl. Just another schoolmate and nothing else, still I also remember how your house look like and the times we spent together fangirling over dbsk and sj. Almost fell out with Gen, but thank god nothing changed.

Secondary three and secondary four, were thankfully exactly the same. Loyalty. Met Venetia- that I've stalked since sec one. And got a tiny bit closer during the angel-mortal game that continued even after the class sort of ended it. A whole box of letters from you! Sorry that my letters are kind of ugly. HAHA Jessie, who sat behind me during term one. The girl so tall, she's 20 cm taller than me. Kelly- that I stalked since sec 2. Because she was a heechul bias back then too. Lent her my rainbow romance disc (during the first few days of sec 3) and she've yet to return it to me, or let's just say she still haven't watched it yet! HAHA. Jasmine- someone that I failed to stalk in sec 2. Never knew someone could be so obsessed with an inanimate object. (bumpy) :D Thanks for being a very retarded deskmate that got pissed at me because I asked you how to do 2x2 matrix multiplication every 5 minutes, but I know how to do it already! Thanks for writing me motivational letters and teaching me math every now and then :) Chloe- who was in my class also during primary 5/6 but we never really talked much. Then we finally became a little closer when tang made us sit together during term 3 :)

Thank you Mrs Tan, although I still get the feeling that you don't really like me. Although my mathematics still suck quite bad, you've done quite a lot to make it much better. It was you who made me get a few As during the course of the two years. You're a great math teacher who is so strict about our attire. Because you're an ex-St. Nicks girl too. Really respected you during the elbie drama, although I don't really know how much you involved yourself in and what you did, but still, yeah.

Okay, so I think I should say sorry, to tang. Sorry for uh, insulting you and talking back to you all the time during sec 3. It's because of you that I got my 2 points for being a monitor and got me my A2 for CCA records that I can get a bonus 4 points. Thank you for helping me and Chloe when we forgot to hand in our CCA records on time to Suzie. Thanks for helping us, never thought that you'd be so kind.

And all the teachers that have taught me throughout the 10 years I've spent in SN, you made me smarter. Thank you.

SN, you've gave me more that i've ever imagined. It's regretful that I can't graduate from the AMK campus, but wherever I am, the St. Nicks' spirit lives on! When St. Nicks is at it's best, no one comes closer. No JC/Poly that I'll go to for post-secondary education and beat how I feel for SN. No school can replace SN in my heart, for I'm always gonna be a St. Nicholas girl.

Ily.

the kind of exhaustion i feel now, makes me feel guilty. Because I didn't exactly do a lot of things today. I feel like crying. I feel so fucking useless. Why am I getting tired from the miserable amount of work that I've done today.

why.