What happened to us?
I thought we were better than this.
I thought we didn't have to count on fandom to talk. I thought I could count on you. I thought we were more than this...
were this all just part of my wishful thinking?
Why?
No honestly, when I heard you say "I don't want to talk to her!" over the phone, I felt... I felt... I don't know what I felt, a mixture of emotions, i think anger came first, which was why i just hung up, sorry sarah, i just hung up on you like that. then i felt sad. then i felt like being indifferent. and then sarah called again, i honestly didn't feel like answering... but i did. Why is it that I just cant and don't want to stay pissed at you? Fine, don't talk to me then. Just don't. Honestly, what the fuck did i do. I was looking forward to your syf being over so that the four of us could have recess together again. fucking hell, it was finally over and then you say you dont wanna eat and just wanna stay in class? fine. fine. so i went up. and then you just sat there and did your work? fine. fine. its okay yknow fucking hell. its okay. at least i could look less pathetic by walking over and talking to ziting and vernice.
I think I'm giving up on this.
honestly, just stop fucking around with my feelings okay. go fucking talk to your so people mep people class people and. i dont wanna give a fuck anymore.
?You're like a queen and beautiful
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