Friday, May 27, 2011
Left behind in this crazy chase for good results, getting into a good junior college.
Left behind and abandoned. No one cares, no one stops to bother, no one gives a damn anymore. It's all about, me, myself, and I.
Life now, is all about your L1, and your beloved R5. Come up with a perfect L1R5 plan, to make sure that you get 6 points for the Os. Oh no, no. That is not enough. Because there are so many 6 pointers around. What makes you think you'll get into your dream JC? So you appeal, and appeal and appeal. You try, and try, and try. When at the end of it all, it's just a piece of paper. Happiness that lasts for a month perhaps, or maybe even lesser. Am I not guilty of this? Oh, of course I'm guilty of this. It doesn't matter anyway.
I don't believe in wanting to go to JC because their culture there is oh so awesome. Nah, I can't even if I want to. Having stayed in SN for 9 years 5 months and 27 days. Nothing else can be compared to SN already. Moreover, you're going to stay in that JC for 2 miserable years only. And then it'll be another crazy chase for good results for no longer ordinary but advance. Advancement, whoo. And then, hmm, it's pretty much all the same isn't it.
But at the end of the day, who are you? What defines you, what do you mean.
Was he free? Was he happy? The question is absurd;
Had anything been wrong, we should certainly have heard.
Any saying all these is useless, because at the end of day.
I still have to go back to studying.
Chemistry;;
now.
?You're like a queen and beautiful
4:11 PM
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Pubs farewell;;
Quite sad. It was fun. The presents were great. And I think I'm going to miss the sec 1s ):< This sounds so biased but i really like the yellow badges. They're so cute omg. HAHA. and ziyi just totally reminds me of my sec 1 self... with the white specs. and. no fringe. and her laughter and just. yknow in overall. its like the sec 1 me. HAHA. Oh yes. she daos me too -,- And jielin ):< the only junior that is ever so responsive HAHA. LIKE ON THE FIRST CCA DAY ALREADY TALK TALK TALK THE REST ALL STONE.
the greys were nice and so were the reds<3
Had pubs dinner(?) at swensens after farewell. It was quite. alright la. HAHA. sigh. gonna miss this so much D: gonna miss jiayi's 'CLUB STANNNNNNNND' AHAHAHHA.
sigh. so much love.
?You're like a queen and beautiful
10:04 PM
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
mixed feelings;;
Last cca session spent in the computer lab for my whole secondary school life. And it was spent without all the sec 4 members 'cause gen got sent home and eunice was absent from school. It didn't occur to me that it was my last pubs session until the end of the day when bernice reminded me. It's a bittersweet feeling. I mean I couldn't wait to step down because sometimes cca is really such a bore and tian is annoying and stuff. But I guess I'll really miss the times the sec 4s gather around and gossip for 2 hours. The times we walk around school during events snapping unglam photos of people. I'll miss all this so much. Not the article writing though, cause I suck at that. When we just came, the sec 4 seniors were yellow badge. Now we're leaving and the sec 1 juniors are yellow badge. HAHA. honestly... Never knew i felt so much for pubs lol.
I'll miss it. I guess.
Sec 4 farewell next wednesday :/
I am one step closer to graduating from St. Nicks. One step closer to losing this big family. One step closer to losing whatever I had in this school. This school that I spent 10 years in. The nametag that I wore for 10 years. It's going to mean nothing sooner or later.
I hate this. I don't want to graduate.
I love SNGS.
?You're like a queen and beautiful
10:52 PM
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
IT'S SIX INCH HEELS BABY <3
LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE.
I'VE ALWAYS WANTED ONE. AND I FINALLY GOT IT!
FROM CHARLES AND KEITH<3
MAD PRETTY!!! OMG HAHAHAHA.
finally got clothes to wear for jubilate heehee.
A1 for bio. and failed lit by 0.4% :)
whatever seriously. HAHAHA.
oh no. still have idk how many compos to do and chem homework ):
shall do them later.
?You're like a queen and beautiful
5:06 PM
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Was really afraid to look at my mark for
Amath when
mrs tan gave it back. But
omg, i jumped 7 grades. A fucking A2. finally.
LOL. The hard work finally did pay off? :)
But I can't say that I can maintain this next term lol. I cant do integration for nuts. Oh fuck, and this only reflects my mark for Differentiation. I cant do logarithms, I can't do trigonometry, I can't do a whole bunch of sec 3 topics.
Results for CA2 had been quite okay so far.
A2 for english overall. A1 for comprehension itself.
B3 for chinese. oh f i can't do gong hans -,-I still can't believe i forgot to write the address wtf -,- could have got A2 -,-
A2 for Amath :D
oh right chem. Dropped. Passed by 1 mark only. ): C6 ):<
But I only studied one day before. So I guess, it's only right for me to get a 26/50 -,-
C6 for SS LOL. HAHAHAHHAHA. whatever honestly. I have no hope in humanities. I'm probably going to fail both history and lit anyway. I only wrote half an essay for history since i didn't even read through germany and the whole test was on germany (Y) WIN.
And i just hope i can get at least an A2 for bio now D:<
-.
8 comprehensions and summaries to do.
win.
--.
Went to watch Macbeth last night. Had free tickets since my dad is the uhm... I dont know how to say this. haha. he provided the guns for the gun shots yes. It was awesome :)
Macbeth, Macbeth, Macbeth be bloody bold and resolute. Laugh to scorn the power of man for none of woman born shall harm Macbeth. :D
---.
So drained. So tired. So tired. So tired.
I really don't want to continue anymore. I really wonder what is keeping me going now.
----/
?You're like a queen and beautiful
11:59 AM
Thursday, May 12, 2011
me, only me. don't look at anyone else.
just me.
so close so close.
im falling falling,
when i fall,
i'ld be falling for you.
I honestly think im dying soon. but suju makes me think otherwise.HAHA.
2.4 cancelled today due to rain. wish came true :)
Seriously, i don't know what im feeling so tired when i slept at 10.30 last night. gave up doing math homework and went to sleep. first time im not handing up my math homework because i didn't do it this year. not too bad eh. but honestly. im tired. ):< really. and then apparently there's going to be 3 exams in term 3? and 2 more spas to go. how am i going to last till Os? and now im still typing in this small box. listening to beast's new single. its good. :) up to my standard for what i expect from beast. HAHA. say until like that. lol. but no really. i have high expectations for beast songs okay! its really nice heh. and now i have to finish green and fear. AM 20, 21.
and 8 comprehensions from 2003-2010 by monday :)
i love my fucking life.
sacarsm intended.
changed my web brower from mozilla to google chrome. 'cause mozilla refused to work. but im not getting used to it ): where is that down button!! where D:< then you have to type out the thingy? oh no ): but its so fast. so whatever. >:)
can't wait for may 17th! Beast's whole new album release ^^
im so tired. i wanna sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep and sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep forever and ever and ever.
?You're like a queen and beautiful
4:12 PM
Monday, May 9, 2011
THIS IS SERIOUS BUSINESS OKAY. ITS OFFICIAL.
EUN FREAKING HYUK. RUINS EVERYONE'S BIAS LIST. EVERYONE. I SWEAR. I SWEARRRR.
REPLAYING HYUK'S SOLO (DOWN) LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS. HOW CAN ANYONE ANYONE LOOK SO FREAKING HOT. THIS IS BAD. HE WAS SOMEWHERE BELOW. AND SOMEHOW I DONT KNOW HOW HE WENT ALL THE WAY UP. AND NOW HE'S SCREWING UP MY BIAS LIST FROM THE TOP. NO HAHAHA HEECHUL'S STILL FIRST. AHAHAH. I MEAN FINE HE HAD ALWAYS BEEN SECOND/THIRD WITH DONGHAE. EUNHAE ARE INTERCHANGEABLE. HAHAHAHHAHAHA FOR MY RANKING LA. OMG. HE IS RUINING MY SECOND/THIRD. OMGOMGOMGOMGOMOGMG.
ANDEUNHAEISREAL.
?You're like a queen and beautiful
8:53 PM
Sunday, May 8, 2011
What happened to us?
I thought we were better than this.
I thought we didn't have to count on fandom to talk. I thought I could count on you. I thought we were more than this...
were this all just part of my wishful thinking?
Why?
No honestly, when I heard you say "I don't want to talk to her!" over the phone, I felt... I felt... I don't know what I felt, a mixture of emotions, i think anger came first, which was why i just hung up, sorry sarah, i just hung up on you like that. then i felt sad. then i felt like being indifferent. and then sarah called again, i honestly didn't feel like answering... but i did. Why is it that I just cant and don't want to stay pissed at you? Fine, don't talk to me then. Just don't. Honestly, what the fuck did i do. I was looking forward to your syf being over so that the four of us could have recess together again. fucking hell, it was finally over and then you say you dont wanna eat and just wanna stay in class? fine. fine. so i went up. and then you just sat there and did your work? fine. fine. its okay yknow fucking hell. its okay. at least i could look less pathetic by walking over and talking to ziting and vernice.
I think I'm giving up on this.
honestly, just stop fucking around with my feelings okay. go fucking talk to your so people mep people class people and. i dont wanna give a fuck anymore.
?You're like a queen and beautiful
4:34 PM
Friday, May 6, 2011
the things you do to me seriously!
i love your hugs ):<
愛上你第一個夏天
我就想給你整個世界
想帶你去冒險
想跟你一起接受考驗我的愛情沒有你想象的善變
只是全放在心裏面
你聽到了嗎？我心裏面想說的話？這首歌的歌詞。爲什麽要這樣對我？忽冷忽熱，我喜歡你的一切的一切，包括你得不好。但你聼不到，看不到，感覺得到嗎? 喜歡你。
?You're like a queen and beautiful
4:26 PM
Thursday, May 5, 2011
PMS AND BIOLOGY DO NOT GO WELL TOGETHER.
OH AND IM POSITIVE I FAILED LIT.
?You're like a queen and beautiful
9:39 PM
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
I AM SO FUCKING SCREWED FOR CA2 ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY ANYMORE.
?You're like a queen and beautiful
10:30 PM
Monday, May 2, 2011
Quite very dead for CA2s
Haven't even started on chem. WIN.
Started on bio a little. just a little. like half a chapter.
Math... IDK. Mrs tan said its going to be difficult so. yeah. i dont really. think. i should care.
SS. WINN ITS TOMORROW AND IM STILL TRYING NOT TO FALL ASLEEP. STILL AT SINGAPORE'S STRATEGIES. HAVEN'T EVEN STARTED ON HEALTHCARE (Y)
Lit, im not really gonna bother okay?
History, havent started. period.
emath. nope. untouched.
God. this is worse than CA1.
?You're like a queen and beautiful
5:19 PM
