there are actually lots of things to be happy about. like just playing around with my brother and stuff :) like the feeling after completing your run.
i love the feeling of finishing my run when i was really trying hard not to walk during my last round. i gave up last week. not enough determination. although my timing isn't really fast. it's quite slow in fact. but i improved from last week. love how i didn't walk during my last round, how i talked to myself. though it was quite psycho. hahaha. like "come on trini you can do this. don't you dare do this." haha, it works though :) when running on the threadmill, they tell you stuff like 8 minutes to go. and i'll be like omgomog yes its only 8 minutes more!~ then i'll be like 7.5 minutes. 7 minutes. 6.5 minute to go. it works :) timing improved by 9 seconds. quite little. HAHA. BUT NOT BAD LEH! last week was 13.08 minutes. this week 12.59 :D just one more second and i'll hit 13.00. ran for another 15 minutes alone in the fitness gym during recess. 15 minutes, 7.2km/h (max speed) is 106 calories burned and 1.82km:) terribly slow. but its alright i guess. felt like a loner. but it's okay i guess. i have dr.feel good on my ipod to run with. ran along with sarah on the track yeterday. was supposed to run 5 rounds. but my determination failed me once again. so i only ran 3 rounds (9.13 mins) and left sarah to complete her 5 rounds. felt quite fail but she's a sports girl :/ but i made it up by running for 10 minutes on the threadmill after that haha. man, why can't 2.4 be on the threadmill. and why am i crapping so much about running omg!
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i guess, it's good to not know so much. this is really not like me. of course it isnt like me. if im the type to not bother about other people i would not have stalked people last time on the net :) but sometimes, i guess it's better to not know some things. knowing more will just make you more depressed, think negatively and not enjoy life. find beauty and happiness in simplicity. everything will be okay. this is completely in contrast from my post below. oh well. i have really terrible moodswings. i know that. Laughing is better than trying to hold your tears back. smiling is better than frowning.
although i still don't believe in that "confidence will make you prettier" crap. those are stuff only pretty and skinny people will say. if you're fat and ugly, no amount of confidence will make you prettier. people judge. you will just come across as that nice girl that is fat. well, and that even depends if you're a nice person to begin with. if you're fat and ugly but confident but your personality sucks. you'll just be annoying, your confidence will come across as disgusting i guess. well, that is what i think personally. maybe one day, just one day, i will think that being confident will make you prettier.
for now, all i believe i smiling makes you prettier than frowning ^^
so smile :D
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forgot to bring my ss textbook back home when there is a graded assignment tomorrow. win :)
haha. oh well, i think it's not really graded. from today. i wanna be happy.
sonia texted me last night to ask me to stay back for night study with her. because i should spend more time with her if not she'll feel sad. do you know how much that little text made me smile. because i really treasure my friendship with her. with sarah. with ziting. with genevieve. with the people around me that i care for. i don't really show my affection much. except for the playful aw, i love you. that we say all the time. but when someone says 'i love you :)' to me. i don't really know what to reply. so please don't mistaken that for me not loving you okay :) you should know if you mean a lot or little to me.
ziting's at night study now. haha. in fact i think most of my friends are there. night study sessions! on! wednesday with sonia after cca. with ziting too but idk which night. how about some night study gen? haha ^^
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god knows why am i so optimistic and happy now.
maybe this is all fake, just another of my usual mood swings. who knows if i would be crying later on bed. but for now. i really love this feeling of being happy.
lets all smile ^^
i spot my cleavage HAHAHAHA. this is the one and only group photo the 4 of us have. after 5 years. the one and only one. taken last year. i guess we just don't camwhore together :)
that's '09s national day smile in the toilet in the old campus for you :) where the both of us still had bangs heheh.
and 2010 smile along the way back to school.
and tiffany's eye smile + smile is just too gorgeous to not be up here.
HOW CAN ANYONE BE SO PRETTY. HAAHAHA ^^
?You're like a queen and beautiful
8:16 PM
Thursday, April 14, 2011
