Thursday, April 28, 2011
I JUST WANT TO SLEEP AND SLEEP AND SLEEP FOREVER. GOD ):<
?You're like a queen and beautiful
9:58 PM
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
since when did sports day become so unimportant to st nicks?
maybe, cause i was from the primary section.
miss the days where we really screamed during house practice. and no one felt embarrassed or weird doing it. honestly...
CHOPPED OFF MY HAIR. okay fine. its not short short but its short.MY HAIRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR D:
finally cut my fringe too. but it's quite. weird. :/
?You're like a queen and beautiful
7:44 PM
Saturday, April 23, 2011
eunhae fics are so beautiful.
so perfect. drawingintheair makes them so perfect. so perfect.
their relationship that is bordering along the line of friendship and romance.
young love stories with kisses in the rain and running away together.
so pretty, such a good writer.
lost for words now. runaway is such a good fic. i can't stand it anymore.
because all i want to do is runaway and enact what exactly happened in the fic with you and only you. but the only difference is donghae loves eunhyuk but you don't love me.
girl's day's if you give me your heart is on permanent replay since 8pm and its 1.30am now. I love this song so much gosh. sojin and minah's voices are really good. i like :)
I should really sleep soon. but i love drawingintheair's eunhae too much to fall asleep.
?You're like a queen and beautiful
1:30 AM
Friday, April 22, 2011
My legs hurt like shit. from yesterday's 5 rounds ):
horrible horrible timing. passed by a few seconds only D:
MAJOR DDDDDDDDD:
not enough determination. walked alot for the 5th round. sigh. :/
Never knew I was such a perfectionist for folding cranes. I love the feeling of folding a perfect crane. Love the prominent lines. I like how I'm so particular about my lines. HAHA. But i think it's only for cranes? I mean look at my handwriting. LOL. ugly shit.
Woke up at 12pm today. It's been a terribly long time since I woke up this late. Gosh. I missed this.
had a great time reading eunhae fanfics.
I AM SO DEPRIVED. I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS. I HAVEN'T READ EUNHAE FICS FOR MONTHS. until yesterday. how did i survive. honestly. and elastic_4. has the 4 most awesome eunhae writers in this whole fandom. apart from sonia's godess catskilt. of course, and a few others. but omg! curiounene, xoxo-nat, drawingintheair, tee. omg. gorgeous fanfics. I like xoxo-nat and drawingintheair's fics the most i guess. oh god. i just read the most perfect masquerade fic of my life yesterday. THE ENDING THE ENDING THE ENDING. I HONESTLY HAD TROUBLES WITH THE ENDING. CAUSE IT'S TOO PERFECT TO BE TRUE. OH MY GOD. PERFECT FOR A PERFECT MASQUERADE FIC. gosh. the ending. /still can't get over it's awesomeness.
currently going through drawingintheair's masterlist ^^
and now i just have to wait for thundersquall's eunhae<3
time is tickin'
?You're like a queen and beautiful
1:58 PM
Monday, April 18, 2011
Happiness is doing your emath homework while waiting for you dad to come home to cook dinner together when your mum is not in singapore ^^
had fun frying maggi mee with my dad HAHA. i mean. its just maggi mee but. HAHAHAH. WE SORT OF MESSED UP THE KITCHEN. an egg fell on the floor, we couldnt figure out what vegetable that was, how much anchovies and dried shrimps we needed and stuff. HAHAHA. seriously, haha. but it was fun ^^
and now im full and tired from all the washing HEHEH.
went home by myself today since my mama is in beijing with my aunt.
feeling quite sian though. but heechul and di cheers me up <3
I LOVE YOU. WHOEVER THAT PHOTOSHOPPED MY LOVES TOGETHER.
MY GORGEOUS MAN ^^
DIDIDIDIDIDIDIDI. My new found love<3
T-AE! SHE'S SO PRETTY *---*
?You're like a queen and beautiful
9:08 PM
Sunday, April 17, 2011
FUCK ALL THIS CRAP.
I really want to care. I want to. I don't want to seem like an indifferent bitch. I know I don't have to be involved. My previous post. I want to smile. I want to be happy. But how can I smile freely when she's like that. Makes me feel like i should be sad too. makes me feel like i shouldn't laugh. I'm worried for you J. ): Don't do anything stupid like them okay D: if you do, what if i do it too?
worried.
-.
on another very very light and happy note. GANREPGBREAPIGBPURAE I THINK IM A TOTAL RANIA FANGIRL NOW :)
GOD GOD GOD THEY'RE AWESOME LIKE AWESHOME AWESHOME. WHEE~ OMG SUPER HAPPY. THEY FINALLY DEBUTED ON INKIGAYO<3 AND LUCY'S SUPER LONG HIGH NOTE AT THE INTRO. SHE'S NOT VERY PRETTY BUR HER VOCALS IMPRESS ME. SHE SINGS SO WELL, I MEAN NOT BREATHLESS AT ALL WITH SUCH A DANCE?! AND DI. OMG SHE'S GORGEOUSSSSSSSS. I THINK T-AE IS PRETTIER. BUT SHE'S THE CUTE PRETTY AND DI IS THE COOL CHARISMATIC KIND OF PRETTY. AND UNTIL I GET TO KNOW THEM BETTER. I STILL CANT DECIDE IF DI/T-AE SHOULD BE MY BIAS HAHHA. ITS STILL MORE OF DI NOW THOUGH. HEH. WHEE! FOUND A TUMBLR DEDICATED TO THEM. AND STOLE LOTS OF PICTURES. YAY.
IN LOVE WITH THEM SO MUCH NOW. i finally found a girl group that i love. i mean i do like snsd la. but i dont love them HAHAH. and my love for miss a lasted for 3 days only :) ITS BEEN MORE THAN A WEEK FOR RANIA. HEH HEH HEH.
AND NO IM NOT IGNORING SUJU. :)
I WAS WATCHING OLD HEECHUL VIDEOS. HAHAHA. WHY IS HE SO CUTEEEEEE. GOD. HAHAHHAHAH I LOVE HIM SO MUCH ):<
I THINK IM REALLY BISEXUAL HAHHA.
(i dont think im pansexual anymore. heheh)
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my mum's flying off to beijing without me tonight ):< have to go home alone but i think i'll be staying back for night study? heehee. so my dad can still fetch me :D
I WILL MISS HER D:
HOPE SHE DA BAOS FOOD BACK FROM THERE FOR ME. YAY. AND CLOTHES. AND STUFF. WHEE~
?You're like a queen and beautiful
5:18 PM
Thursday, April 14, 2011
there are actually lots of things to be happy about. like just playing around with my brother and stuff :) like the feeling after completing your run.
i love the feeling of finishing my run when i was really trying hard not to walk during my last round. i gave up last week. not enough determination. although my timing isn't really fast. it's quite slow in fact. but i improved from last week. love how i didn't walk during my last round, how i talked to myself. though it was quite psycho. hahaha. like "come on trini you can do this. don't you dare do this." haha, it works though :) when running on the threadmill, they tell you stuff like 8 minutes to go. and i'll be like omgomog yes its only 8 minutes more!~ then i'll be like 7.5 minutes. 7 minutes. 6.5 minute to go. it works :) timing improved by 9 seconds. quite little. HAHA. BUT NOT BAD LEH! last week was 13.08 minutes. this week 12.59 :D just one more second and i'll hit 13.00. ran for another 15 minutes alone in the fitness gym during recess. 15 minutes, 7.2km/h (max speed) is 106 calories burned and 1.82km:) terribly slow. but its alright i guess. felt like a loner. but it's okay i guess. i have dr.feel good on my ipod to run with. ran along with sarah on the track yeterday. was supposed to run 5 rounds. but my determination failed me once again. so i only ran 3 rounds (9.13 mins) and left sarah to complete her 5 rounds. felt quite fail but she's a sports girl :/ but i made it up by running for 10 minutes on the threadmill after that haha. man, why can't 2.4 be on the threadmill. and why am i crapping so much about running omg!
-.
i guess, it's good to not know so much. this is really not like me. of course it isnt like me. if im the type to not bother about other people i would not have stalked people last time on the net :) but sometimes, i guess it's better to not know some things. knowing more will just make you more depressed, think negatively and not enjoy life. find beauty and happiness in simplicity. everything will be okay. this is completely in contrast from my post below. oh well. i have really terrible moodswings. i know that. Laughing is better than trying to hold your tears back. smiling is better than frowning.
although i still don't believe in that "confidence will make you prettier" crap. those are stuff only pretty and skinny people will say. if you're fat and ugly, no amount of confidence will make you prettier. people judge. you will just come across as that nice girl that is fat. well, and that even depends if you're a nice person to begin with. if you're fat and ugly but confident but your personality sucks. you'll just be annoying, your confidence will come across as disgusting i guess. well, that is what i think personally. maybe one day, just one day, i will think that being confident will make you prettier.
for now, all i believe i smiling makes you prettier than frowning ^^
so smile :D
-.
forgot to bring my ss textbook back home when there is a graded assignment tomorrow. win :)
haha. oh well, i think it's not really graded. from today. i wanna be happy.
sonia texted me last night to ask me to stay back for night study with her. because i should spend more time with her if not she'll feel sad. do you know how much that little text made me smile. because i really treasure my friendship with her. with sarah. with ziting. with genevieve. with the people around me that i care for. i don't really show my affection much. except for the playful aw, i love you. that we say all the time. but when someone says 'i love you :)' to me. i don't really know what to reply. so please don't mistaken that for me not loving you okay :) you should know if you mean a lot or little to me.
ziting's at night study now. haha. in fact i think most of my friends are there. night study sessions! on! wednesday with sonia after cca. with ziting too but idk which night. how about some night study gen? haha ^^
-.
god knows why am i so optimistic and happy now.
maybe this is all fake, just another of my usual mood swings. who knows if i would be crying later on bed. but for now. i really love this feeling of being happy.
lets all smile ^^
i spot my cleavage HAHAHAHA. this is the one and only group photo the 4 of us have. after 5 years. the one and only one. taken last year. i guess we just don't camwhore together :)
that's '09s national day smile in the toilet in the old campus for you :) where the both of us still had bangs heheh.
and 2010 smile along the way back to school.
and tiffany's eye smile + smile is just too gorgeous to not be up here.
HOW CAN ANYONE BE SO PRETTY. HAAHAHA ^^
?You're like a queen and beautiful
8:16 PM
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
It's more than 50percent. you don't even know me. who are you to me. do you know the real me? Does anyone know the real me? No. the answers is just a straight no. 'cause i don't ever tell anyone about my problems, about my troubles. no one knows what i do. no one. what if one day you realise that you're the problem that's causing me this pain. because there's nothing much i can do about how i feel. what can you do? What can I do? Nothing. absolutely. nothing. All i can do is sit there and worry and there's nothing much i can do can i? Everyone around me is so pretentious, its scary. honestly. the scariest part is you never know when someone around you is actually doing something to harm herself. you don't know anything, it makes me think if i actually know them in the first place. who is this person i know. everyone is just putting on facades. well, including me as well. i have my own issues that im having problems with. i just can't stop what i'm doing. god i feel like crying. im just a coward. i don't even have the courage to do that. can't do this can't do that. what can i do. i want to believe in her. please don't let her be different from what i thought she was like. I'm scared.i'm scared.
?You're like a queen and beautiful
7:26 PM
Saturday, April 9, 2011
trini feels like crying. trini is jealous.
jealous of how she leads such a perfect life. of how she's skinny, smart, known, popular, has a boyfriend and how they're so sweet together, how she can both sing and dance, how trini can't do or have any of the above.
oh well. it's natural isn't it. to be envious of such people. or maybe it's just me. how i wish, how i wish i could be like her. although she's hated by many.
?You're like a queen and beautiful
10:07 PM
Time is tickin', time time is tickin' tickin'//
time is passing horrendously fast. what the shit is this. its april, end of week 3.
week 4 awaits me with my second chemistry O level spa, a lit seminar that i have to write an article on the same day, a social studies graded assignment on a secondary 3 chapter that i never studied and a canon photography workshop at VJC. 4 weeks to week 7, ziting/amanda's birthday. Haven't really quite started on ziting's present apart from the first page. Still thinking about what to get for amanda though she still owes me 3 birthday presents and 3 valentines day letters. :)
There's a whole lot of undone english homework that i refuse to do, though i know that i'm the one losing out if i don't do it. I'm just leaving it there untouched while I continue to turn lesbian for RANIA. oh god. why are they so fucking hot.
BRB. TURNING LES FOR 6 GIRLS. lucy is ugly sorry, but omg her voice is freaking good. RANIA SINGS WELL, DANCES WELL, AND ARE PRETTY. gosh. AND MULTI-LINGUAL. KOREAN, JAP, CHINESE, THAI, ENGLISH.
DI IS SO HOT, CHARISMATIC, PRETTY, AND SHE HAS THIS SPECIAL THING TO HER VOICE THAT I REALLY LIKE ALOT. and she's only 18 god. and 171 cm tall. but i dislike her stage name HAHA. I MEAN HER REAL NAME NICE WHAT. DARAE.
and JOY OMG. SHE'S THAI. AND FREAKING PRETTY. I LIKE HERRRRR.
okay back to annoying school work.
off to do sec 3 math since i totally forgot how to do.
along with 3 songs on permanent replay today.
MIRROR MIRROR/HEART TO HEART -4MINUTE
DR. FEEL GOOD- RANIA.
-.
she's back and not really happy. She's back and you're gone; I'm a little affected but you're not.
?You're like a queen and beautiful
1:05 PM
Monday, April 4, 2011
ITS STILL HYUK'S BIRTHDAY :)
apparently the sj-m members celebrated his birthday outside (in taiwan) and hyuk did the saranghae sign to fans that waved. lucky fans >:)
Hope donghae says 'i love you' to eunhyuk<3
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cabbed down to dhoby today with sonia because cabbing is awesome that way! HAHAH. OH SHIT IM BROKE NOW LA. OKAY LIKE TOTALLY BROKE. I CAME TO SCHOOL WITH $30 AND IM LEFT WITH $5 -,- win. taxi driver couldn't find the red cross place and omg i was quite like pissed and stuff cause the meter just keep jumping okay! people no money! then haha in the end it was like $11.10 then he just took $10 from us. okay la not bad la. :) walked in and it was quite weird. the whole atmosphere was like weird. there were 2 booths for cash donations and 1 for cheque donations. and the whole place was like empty except for like the volunteers. ya. and omg one of the volunteers at the booth that we went is japanese. i feel so sad ):< okay. yes so we donated money. and so we're going to get our eunhae college!au porn from thundersquall soon!!!! OMG I CAN'T FREAKING WAIT. yes. then walked to plaza sing and bought stuff from papermarket for ziting's birthday present. OH MY FREAKING GOD THE STUFF THERE ARE SO GORGEOUS BUT SO FREAKING EXPENSIVE. i bought like pop-up alphabets and alphabet stickers. like that only $14.80?! I owe sonia $14 now -,- yes. and i still haven't develop photos yet!!! oh no. I'M SPENDING SO MUCH MONEY ON ONE BIRTHDAY PRESENT. SHIT. HAHAHA. and i still have to spend time to do! oh well its okay :)
after we're done and stuff then we went to hmm, emicakes! and bought a $1.90 small strawberry cake. ITS TINY BUT DELICIOUS OMG. HAHAHA. watched eunhae's i wanna love you while eating it and sang hyuk a birthday song out in the open in plaza sing. yes. it was weird. but whatever.HAHAHAHHA. ate takoyaki too ^^ yeah, trained/bused home.
/broke for the whole week.
?You're like a queen and beautiful
10:08 PM
Sunday, April 3, 2011
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEEHYUKJAE.
let me in, let me show all my bling bling and kicks kicks baby dance with me~honestly hyuk. i don't understand that sentence. but whatever ^^
where should I begin? This is the third time I'm celebrating your birthday. As much as I love eunhae, I really wish that you're still constantly in contact with junsu. Hyuksu is precious. so precious, you guys have been best friends since high school, auditioned together, junsu got in first, you auditioned the second time and managed to get it, you guys kept bullying donghae when dbsk and suju were trainees together. Hyuksu is precious baby, I hope the dbsk-jyj controversy isnt doing anything to ruin your friendship ):
You're precious Lee Hyukjae. Where should I begin to tell you how much I love you. I don't like how people only acknowledge your dancing skills. although they're the awesome to the max. Dancing is not my thing, so it isn't really the main reason as to why I love you. I love the way you weren't close to heechul but when hankyung left and heechul was emoing, you comforted him, you cheered him up. you cared for him. you care for the members. I love the way you try your best to sing well even though your voice isn't really made for singing. but you still sound beautiful, because you try your best. During 'good person' live, it was really pretty how all the members shoved they mics to you and tried not to sing out of tune. You're probably the fastest idol rapper. yes idol rapper because godamnit, i swear no one can be faster than outsider and i think outsider isnt really an idol? although he's hot. heh. one love is amazing. gosh. yeah, I know there was this period of time where i was really infatuated with junhyung's rapping, and I still do think that junhyung's rapping is awesome. but i think, after really listening to one love/ heartquake live!version. and comparing it to thanks to. EUNHYUK, YOU'RE MORE AMAZING AND AWESOME. not that junhyung sucks though ^^I think its amazing how hot you can get with donghae. and also as an individual of course. your red hair oh my god. i think i almost fainted during ss2 in malaysia when you came out in that black furry thingy that was so godamn gorgeous and your hair was red with some black and those shades and that rapping with k.r.y. in the background. It's amazing. lee hyukjae you're amazing. I love how you're sonia's bias and the way you make her so happy just by looking at you. and how you just somehow make her happy miraculously when she's sad or something. cause if she's sad i'll be sad too ):< I love how eunhae is so real, how you spam eunhae photos with donghae on twitter and on cyworld comments/entries/sidebar messages. I love the feeling of getting spammed by eunhae so much. Cause even though my bias is heechul for around 1 year and 9 months, eunhae is still my favorite couple. even if the hanchul ship didn't sink it still wouldn't be my otp.
I hope you'd have an awesome 25th birthday (26th-korean age)!
I love you so much.
(11.00 pm singapore time = 12.00am korea time) ^^
?You're like a queen and beautiful
11:00 PM
AGPREBGPIUAREBGPIUAREBGPIURAE.
YONGSEO ENDED. MAJOR SAD FACE FOREVER. ):<
HOWWWWWWWWWWW. I love yongseo D:
EDIT:
haha. actually this is unrelated to the above. but that was so short. SO LET'S JUST USE THIS POST :)
AGBERIUBGPIAEBGPUIAEBGUAEUPGIAE. OH MY GOD. THUNDERSQUALL JUST CONFIRMED WITH SONIA THAT WE'VE WON THE BID.
OH MY GOD!!!!!! A EUNHAE COLLEGE!AU PORN FROM THUNDERSQUALL. MY LIFE IS COMPLETE. FREAKING COMPLETE I TELL YOU.
WHEE~
OKAY SO TOMORROW IS HYUK'S BIRTHDAY! and it's like chinese remedial tomorrow so i don't have to stay back. but sonia has so i'm gonna like sit in with her in her class. AND THEN WE'RE GOING TO RED CROSS BABY. ITS AT LIKE 15 PENANG ROAD AND WE WERE LIKE WHY IS IT IN MALAYSIA. LOL. BUT OKAY LA ITS IN DHOBY :) WHEE~ AND THEN WE ARE GONNA BUY CAKE TO CELEBRATE HYUK'S BIRTHDAY. OMG YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY LOVELOVELOVELOVE FOREVER.
?You're like a queen and beautiful
12:41 PM
