
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
I'm worried for what's going to happen tomorrow, during my additional mathematics paper. I won't say that I know nothing, because I do know something. But what do I know? formulas that would be printed out for us. Theorems that I don't know how to use to prove.
I laugh at the questions. But the questions are actually laughing at me. I laugh- because I've been practicing for days, and I still can't solve these questions. They laugh- because I've been practicing and i still don't know how to solve them.
I tried for amath this time. The fact that I still have not memorised my bio word-for-word proves that point. I'd always turned to bio or chem first. But I haven't even touched chem yet. Oh and what about history and literature? Untouched too. Why? Because I've been practicing for a.math. and yet. haha. I still know nothing. Beautiful.
This is disgusting.
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Seriously, you're not the only one allowed to have mood swings. Don't come and fuck with me. So what? you can just ignore everything i said to you, but when I don't answer your questions. you can fucking scold me and i have to take everything? and when i rebut i'm being fucking rude and disrespectful? Fuck respect. I don't give a motherfucking damn. Why does everything have to go your way? When you're in a good mood you smile and laugh and i have to smile and laugh along with you even if im not feeling happy. when you're in one of your bad moods and i'm feeling happy do i have to fucking feel down because you are?! you have succeeded then. here am i bitching about you here. fuck this. fuck everything. fuck my bloody motherfucking life. it's been a real fucking long time since i used so much vulgarities.
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What do we do when we've achieved our dreams?
What are we running for?
What's in store for us in the future?
Who is going to give a damn if I die now- or tomorrow?
Who will cry for me when I not doing well?
Where are we going to go?
Why are we all so pretentious?
This is just absolutely disgusting and childish.
Yeah, I'm immature like that.
?You're like a queen and beautiful
9:54 PM