
Thursday, October 28, 2010

Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Searching;;
For a way to start dieting, for a quick diet that will let me lose 10kg within 2 months and what i lose is not water but fats, and that my liver will not produce ketones and whatever toxic shit.Kind of impossible huh, exercise, what i lose is the glucose that have yet to be converted into glycogen, how long can i exercise and resist the temptation of food before i actually start burning fats?
Deciding;;
If i should start packing my room to make space for next year. Should I hide your box of letters somewhere deep in my cupboard so that i'll never have that urge to open that box and start reading them again? When will I ever succumb to the fact that I already know that this is impossible and that I have already gotten over you, and that, I'm not hoping for anything anymore.
(People reading this will probably think that I'm referring to someone that i'm not actually referring too.)
Confused;;
I expected this sort of results, so why did i decide to go and listen to really slow ballads with korean lyrics that i don't exactly understand even after studying korean for so long, and try to cry. I didn't feel sad at all when i received my failed A-math paper, I didn't feel that sad when i received my chem paper, where i scraped a B4. I didnt feel sad when i received my E-math paper, 50/100, i was quite happy actually, i passed didn't i? But I almost, just that tiny bit in me, wanted to burst into tears when i received my Biology paper, 68.5/100. Is that what all i can achieve? A pathetic B3? After putting in so much effort? I don't know what to do anymore. EOYs are over, but I feel like doing A-math papers out of a sudden, yet before EOYs arrived, i was watching dramas and reading fanfics and procrastinating. Honestly, what the shit is wrong with me.
Despair;;
Time to move on, girl.
Time's up.
?You're like a queen and beautiful
11:42 PM