
Friday, February 26, 2010
아파아파아파 내 사랑이 너무 아파.
her blog made me wonder about all the things going on in my life.
alex teoh is right.
the sky is the same.
the world moves on.
when you cry, no one cries with you.
when you're sad, no one pities you.
when you're lonely, no one stays by your side.
maybe they do, they do.
but you don't know if they mean it.
i mean we all do it.
or rather, i do it all the time.
i say 'i love you' when i dont.
i say 'i miss you so much.' when i dont.
but i dont do it all the time.
standing 10 minutes by the school gate today made me wonder about much does it worth.
is it worth it feeling sad over results.
it it worth my tears.
is it worth my energy.
it takes energy to emo mind you.
alex teoh said " Live your live without regrets."
But... i am regreting what i'm doing.
I still remember what Julius Koh said in p6 before PSLE.
"there's no point going over to the other side of the bridge if you know you can't make it there. you might as well go to a neighbouhood school and be the top there. and no go to a good school and be the worst. you wont feel good."
He makes so much sense now. what i wanted then was just to get to st. nicks.
who knew being in the secondary section was so different from being in the primary section.
who knew that friends would mean so much.
who knew that results would mean so much.
who knew that your appeareance would mean so much.
who knew that gossips can spread around the whole school so fast.
who knew. who knew. who knew.
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and yet, i can't do anything.
?You're like a queen and beautiful
8:34 PM