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you pulled me back
caught me and left me hanging
in your pocket
you're my worst salvation, baby.
oh i wish i was not the one to walk away
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Friday, October 30, 2009

and right after that post. this post is dedicated to TAN SI HUI GENEVIEVE.

Dear LALA Genevieve,

Do you remember how GenNi started? LOL! I still remember can. Not bad. It started on international friendship day. Lol. And its just because we were writing the paper thingy and then your name la too long then we came up with GenNi Lan. Ridiculous :D Yes, I still can’t remember how we became good friends. Last year was totally. Idk? You randomly called me ‘NiNi’ and yeah, idk la. then this year. Oh well, I managed to change your dislike for kpop into love. I rock :D you know I totally do. And I really want to eat melted chocolate with you again. And what else. Uhm, go to A.Loh’s house and crap! :D I went to Kbox 4 times. And every single time, you’ll be there. And I still want to go out, lets go to suntec and sit that stimulator thingy and I’ll press that arcade thingy that goes “IT’SSSSS FUNNNN!!!!” in that stupid Barney voice. And we’ll be able to take a picture with Barbie and Ken together. I hope. LOL. Random-ness. And yeah, you should totally stop trying to be taller than me ><> And we haven’t bought something that only two of us have. Yeah, we have the days where we started writing songs too, and your cheem-ness in english (: and we havent finish[ GENNI 100 SONG CHALLENGE] yet!!! You’re the first person that I have a shared blog with and in fact we have SO MANY shared stuff, (Lj, Blogger, Twitter – that we never even use. Lawl., facebook). And then we have our tom yam chao fan days. And the days where you finally managed to make me drink dou jiang and I actually got hooked on it. but now, I still drink dou jiang only from the shop near our school. OMG I JUST REALISED HOW MUCH I’M GOING TO MISS ROMAS!!! ))): NO MORE TOM YAM CHAO FAN NEXT YEAR! D: And you better remember all my di yi cis that I gave you. And I still remember how you humiliated me on bus number 265 okay. And I remember how I had to take a bus ALONE for the first time to pon tuition and go to kbox (: and everything. Talking about Kbox, we still need to have a kbox where we’ll have our “er ren shi jie” and we’ll FIND GEE and NOBODY at Kbox Plaza I don’t care!!! And then we can play songs from our phone and sing using kbox the mics :D And I just remembered about a super retarded moment we had. You called me like about 11 and theres school the next day so I was already on the bed. Then for some unknown reason I started singing INSOMNIA. And it was super nan ting ! HAHAHA. TEEHEE^^ GeNi is retarded yeah? We were like retarded bimbos at J8, and we wasted what was it $8? Whatever we wasted so much money on kachapons. Ridiculous HEH HEH. And now we move on to the thank you part. Thanks for always spamming me with your unlimited smses, thanks for running with me when im jian fei-ing, thanks for always pei-ing me, thanks for choosing my clothes for Jubilate, thanks for always sabo-ing me to write articles during CCA, thanks for always eating tom yam chao fan with me (you know you don’t mind. Totally don’t mind. Lol.), thanks for tolerating all my stupid nonsense (especially during the MT part. Where uh, you became our messenger, and MT hated you because of me, sorry.), thanks for creating so many retarded memories with me yeah (: We’ll not split. Because we’ll go to the same class ( I don’t care.) and we’ll continue to bitch about people we can’t stand, and continue to stay back after school and shift the chair in the canteen to study and continue to camwhore and you’ll continue to hear about how I stalk random people and give me the -,- face and haha all the stupid lians! (LOL) (!) LOL. Heehee. Don’t break my heart next year, don’t be the my third failure in friendships. Even though we never quarrelled like REALLY quarrelled before but yeah, you know all the stuff that went on before… yeah, we’ll still be GenNi until idk when hokay? Love you la. (I know you’re gonna be so touched) (!)

Love, The trini that you love the most.

The above is like 742 words.

What do get when you add 7+4+2?

TEEHEE (:

Minus the Dear LALA Genevieve and Love, The trini that you love the most.

THIS IS THE LONGEST DEDICATION I EVER WROTE IN MY LIFE OMG.

?You're like a queen and beautiful
10:39 PM

DEDICATIONSSS. its kinda short i guess.

Ziting: It's all your fault Ziting. Actually nah, if it wasn't for you i dont know who i'll be loving now. It's been a fun year with all your retarded-ness. Even though i said that i didn't like you last time. and it's been great uhm trying to speak korean lol. and i still remember that time Jane didn't come to school and you sat at her seat and we kept trying but fail to sing wheesung's insomnia and snsd's genie together. It was damn retarded lah. and we were damn noisy. okay, and uhm to cut the crap. i'll miss you ass. and donghae loves you, but he belongs to eunhyuk.

Amanda Loh: i have nothing to say to you. HAHA. yeah. okay. i don't think we'll still be in the same class next year and you'll no longer be my partner. it was really fun being your homeec partner where we keep going 'oh shit. we forgot ____.' ahaha. and last year's D&T! lol peter tay and his crap. yes spastic bananananana. im going to miss you. D: stop being a player. (HAHAHA.) i love you haha.

Peck Yee: YEEEEEEEE. Hi my twin. i know we very ming ku have genevieve this kind of evil twin/ other side. HEHEH. I'll miss the days we went to kbox together! and high-ing over Jay and MAYDAY and lol we didn't sing wang fei in the end. too much Jay! and LOL at shitou in the stupid superwoman mv. and lol you really hor, go kbox neh use mic sing de leh! lol. okay i know i chao ni for very long. but reallllyyyyy. YOU KNOW ITS JANE'S FAULT FOR BEING BAICHI THATS WHY I SO NOISY RIGHTTT. like really i realised got one time the class damn quiet. then i keep laughing -,- okay. im gonnnnna miss you ))): ily. byebye. you're taking physics ):

Jyeting: THANKS FOR YOUR GEOG NOTES :D it helped me pass my geog! don't be too sad lah. go and eat your german sausage or something. i know i still owe you food lah. when we go to the 11-20 class party then i give you your uhm food okay :D sitting next to you is fun la. your chinese is hilarious but your omg written is cheena can. hokay. i'll miss your retard-ness too nexy year (:

Jaclyn: actually. i really have nothing much to say to you. except that you were really nice in term 1. and i learnt the put phone in pencil case to watch videos in class from you also. and yeah. thanks for uhm writing all the dbsk stuff on the paper covering my table in term 1 LOL :D and yes. you are still my motivation to run -,- okay. go gain some weight. bye. i might miss you LOL. okay fine i'll miss you.

Shi Yu: HI. i have nothing much to say to you too. BUT I MISSED THE UHM DAY THAT WE CREATED BP AND WE HAD SO MUCH FUN STEALING YOUR MONEY AND PUSHING THEM DOWN PECKYEE'S BACK. HAHAHAHAHHA. and gossiping about target and stuff :D and your height makes me depressed. LOL. (:

Jiawen: you're officially the second JANE LAU. LAU JIAWEN. Jane Lau Jia Wen. you seriously damn retarded. and though its for a short period of time. i enjoyed the days where i sat like 'next' to you. and i love waking you up when you're sleeping. its damn fun la. and im still amazed by how you and jane can sms in class without getting caught -,- and i never knew your math was that good. AND THAT YOU HAVE SUCH A DESPO SUPER DESPO FRIEND. okay. bye.

Jane: I'll miss your retard-ness. and uhm. miss the days that we listened to 93.3 in class. and all your stupid mayday info. and uhm YOU STILL OWE ME MY CERFITICATE FOR PRINTING YOUR STUFF FOR THE WHOLE DAMNED YEAR. and uhm. i still remember how you freaking kick my chair in term 1 okay. and term 3 was super noisy because you're super baichi. and somehow. PEOPLE ALWAYS SAY IM NOISY WHEN ITS ALL YOUR FAULT. and uh. i dont think i'll miss your stupid in the middle of the night smses and calls. and LOL. i'm still going to stalk your friends. and tell candice she's really ugly.i'm going to delete your stupid folder in my heesica already. and okay. bye. i'll miss you and your retard-ness. dont puke when you see this.

MT: you know. actually i had alot of things to say to you. but i guess you won't even be seeing this. so i shall just uhm. not say anything too whatever. i enjoyed the days where we watched dbsk/suju through your iphone and uh going over to your house and stuff... okay bye. i don't think im going to miss you. (it sounds abit uhm. but whatever. )

MY PHONE IS DEAD. OH MY SHIT. ITS DEAD.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

im already 14.

Monday, October 26, 2009

go to gen's blog!

dedications will be written on the last day of school.
let's see. im writing dedications for :
BP- Gen, Amanda Loh, Ziting, Peck Yee, Jyeting, Jaclyn, Shi Yu
& Jiawen
& Jane
& Mt. (her so-called dedication is just a place for me to say whatever i'd been thinking about.)

yeah.
i wrote Gen's super long dedication already
LOL.
its super long can.

'Behind every person’s exterior, it lies a soul barely breathing. Behind every person’s exterior, it lies many emotions unsaid. Behind a smile, there is a frown, behind a laugh, there is a cry. And everyone just has to keep everything behind their veil and leave it obscured to the human eye.'

oh wow, i was reading fics that i had written last time and i found this.
(i never knew i could write something like that considering my english standard for COMPOS.)

maybe there should be a idk what, thailand? indonesia -,-? japan (all over again)? TAIWAN (PLEASE. i can't fucking stand it. I hate taiwan people. oh-so-much. Maybe not including Mayday.) ?

where did mando pop go to?
where did english pop go to?
where did japanese pop go to?
weren't people crazy over Fei Lun Hai, Bang Bang Tang, Hey Girl, and i don't know. what else. Tang yu zhe?
weren't people crazy over what, Linkin park? MCR? (i really don't know anything about english pop.) ohoh, Jonas Brothers.
weren't people crazy over anime, mangas, idk. erm Ayumi Hamasaki?

of course, there are still people sticking to them (:
and im not against people that are in the korean wave.
but oh whatever, they are so idk i just i cant stand their stupidity.
especially when they go,
"You like Super Junior right?"
me: "Er, yeah?"
"OMG, which members do you like?"
me: "Erm, all?"
"WAH. REALLY ARH. I like ________, _________, _________, ________ only."
and then they start crapping about their favorite.
the thing is, its okay you know. that part is still okay.
its when after they say how many members they like and why then they go, i love being an ELF.
thats the part where i cant stand.

i cant do anything.
and this post probably offended some retarded people lol.
who cares anyway.
i shall just pray that the korean wave will fade away soon.
but actually it wont.
because nobody is apparently still 'in'.
so what about sorry sorry, its you, gee, genie, lachata, chocolate love, again and again, heartbreaker, and so many more.
see how slow singapore is.
:/

Saturday, October 24, 2009

went over to rachel's house today.
it was fun (:
her brother is cute and super naughty ^^
LOL had fun with gen and rach singing i forgot the song name. (you light up my life or something)
lol, we closed the curtains and on-ed rach coolioz lamp when the lyrics you light my life comes
damn super retarded.
rach took a vid of retarded gen and me
LOL.
and our vid thingy is not bad la huh.
but the vid is like all over the place in the tape -,-
WE ARE GONNA HAVE SO MUCH FUN EDITING IT.
(you do sense the sarcasm right)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

My everything

The loneliness of nights alone
the search for strength to carry on
my every hope has seemed to die
my eyes had no more tears to cry
then like the sun shining up above
you surrounded me with your endless love
Coz all the things
I couldn't see are
now so clear to me

You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
On bended knee
That you will always be
My everything

Now all my hopes and all my dreams
are suddenly reality
you've opened up my heart to feel
a kind of love that's truly real
a guiding light that'll never fade
there's not a thing in life that I would ever trade
for the love you give it won't let go
I hope you'll always know

You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
On bended knee
That you will always be
My everything

You're the breath of life in me
the only one that sets me free
and you have made my soul complete
for all time (for all time)

You are my everything (you are my everything)
Nothing your love won't bring (nothing your love won't bring)
My life is yours alone (alone)
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through (your spirit pulls me through)
When nothing else will do (when nothing else will do)
Every night I pray (I pray)
On bended knee (on my knee)
That you will always be
be my everything

You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray
down on bended knee
that you will always be my everything
oh my everything

thats the full lyrics.
Donghae skipped the second verse in Super Show.
i can't stop repeating My everything when i watch Super Show.
the lyrics are so awesome...
especially the chorus.
and think Donghae sang this song better than 98 degrees.
He sang it with much more emotions.
and i think his voice is nicer than then 98 degrees person. (no, im not biased.)
and Donghae's english is much better than Junsu's.
LOL.
go youtube and find the vid with both versions of My Everything from Donghae and Junsu.
love this song and donghae♥

Thursday, October 22, 2009

1.[how are people feeling BAD for him. he picked up the alcohol. himself. could have killed someone. hopefully he’ll learn from this STUPID mistake. FANS WAKE THE HELL UP]

2.[hahaha pack your bags fat ass you’re getting dropped from SuJu LOLOLOL
TAKE SHINDONG WITH YOU TOO PLZ HE’S UGLY.]

3.[i don’t believe it’s his bad luck. If you’re intoxicated, you DONT drive. Seriously, poor kangin?????!!!!! how about the taxi driver and the passengers? What? they’re human too , last time i checked.Nah, his career won’t be over if he apologized, like JJ’s incident. But at least he turned himself in. Shame…. shame….#32 & #44, agree with yah]

4.[why are people feeling sorry for him?? thank goodness the passengers in the taxi were okay. he shouldn’t be considered an idol…fans need to realize that he brought all this trouble onto himself and other people]

5.[these brainless fangirls will still support kangin even if kangin kills someone]

6.[he should get his license revoked. he was lucky enough that he didn’t kill anyone this time..what happens if he does it again? not only was he stupid, he’s an idiot! use your brain!!! He’d BETTER NOT get out of this one]

7.[Would you still support him if he’d actually killed that cab driver, or the passengers….does people’s idol worship have no boundries?]

8.[Drunk Driving, is one the MOST selfish things a person can do, because nine times outta of ten, the drunk driver walks away unharmed. Not only was he drunk driving, but he’s a coward who ran away from the scene….i don’t give a rat’s ass if he turned himself in, later….DAMAGED DONE!!]

9.[poor kangin my ass say goodbye to career it’s all your fault. Super Junior will not miss u your a waste of space.]

10.[of course some stupid fangirls don’t have common since. They have an IQ of a street pigeons…SOME not all. (aka ones feeling sorry for him)
But seriously, does Kangin have a BRAIN?! He could have killed innocent people. I really hope he doesn’t try and commit suicide cause he seemsdepressed lately :/]

11.[This is KangIn being DUMBand no, Poor KangIn? Are you kidding me? just plain stupidHe deserves whatever is gonna happen to him.]

There are fucking lots more...
talking about the same thing, about how idiotic Kangin is to drink and drive, to hit and run. they say how they no longer respect Kangin...
@the 1st comment. Because he's an idol. but, an idol is a human no? so what if they are an idol... And we know what we are doing. We do not need to fucking wake up.
@the 2nd comment. It's just plain. idk what. my vocab sucks yes. so if you want me to use a word/ phrase to describe that comment, all i can say is fuck. and more fucks. take shindong away. WHATS WRONG WITH BEING FAT. WHATS WRONG WITH BEING UGLY. IF YOU'RE OH SO PRETTY/HANDSOME, SO SKINNY LIKE A BAMBOO...what are you doing behind the computer everyday and signing petitions to ask people to kill themselves and forcing people to leave. net-tizens... they have no life. at all. they just stay home and live behind their fucking computers. though i do agree that its definitely not 'poor Kangin' because it is his own fault yeah.
@the 3rd comment. Yes, we all know that the taxi driver and passengers are human, even if they were not injured, Kangin put their lives at risk and yes, it is his fault. we know that he brought it upon himself for drink-driving...we feel sorry for him, because, isn't it a pity to see his career that he had worked so hard for be a game over just like this. Just because of one stupid accident? (yes, even if it is a kinda grave mistake?)
@the 4th comment. Idols, the definition from the dictionary: 1. a famous person who is loved and admired by fans. 2. a picture or statue which is worshipped as if it were a god. Now, Kangin is still famous, and he is still loved very much by all E.L.F.s, well at least E.L.F.s that stand by him and supports him and not give up on him and lose their respect for him and stop loving him after this case. The comments says it all, "i am a huge Super Junior fan and i really love this guy but he is really an idiot for drink-driving, he is putting other's lives at risk!" and many other comments around this line. are you really an E.L.F.? Yes, i am disappointed in him for this case, feeling sad because it is very serious, but i think, as an E.L.F., as an SELF-PROCLAIMED E.L.F., i'll still stand by and wait, and wait for Kangin's case to be over and celebrate. Even if he needs to go to jail and maybe his career is really going to be over. He is still the Kangin that we love, because Kangin is Kangin and we love him for who he is, no? We will support him like how all the other Suju members will do. Gossip websites, they actually ASSUMED that Heechul said that Kangin should be banned from Super Junior and he is a burden to them, from the assault case to this hit and run case. Heechul, we are talking about Super Junior Kim Heechul, an ordinary man Kim Heechul, he stood up for Hankyung, he didn't give a damn about his idol image and slapped students for insulting Hankyung, his friend, his fellow band member. Will someone that did that find Kangin a burden to their band and not stand by him in this period and think that he should leave Super Junior? Where are your brains reporters... at least do some background research on what kind of man Kim Heechul is before ASSUMING that he think Kangin should be banned from Super Junior because he said 落我. Another assumption, i think all these netizens fail their English Literature.
@the 5th comment. We, are not brainless. We just want to give our support to our idols when they are in a difficult period... We have enough intelligence to understand that drink-driving plus hit and run is very serious. If Kangin kills someone... we, at least I...will stop treating him as an idol, because i would stop loving him.
@the 6th comment. "He BETTER NOT get out of this one." ??? you're not an E.L.F. right? i hope you're not one.
@the 7th comment. The thing is that he DID NOT KILL THE TAXI DRIVER OR THE PASSENGERS. HE FUCKING DID NOT KILL THEM. If he did, i'll probably be tearing down my posters. and stop being a self-proclaimed Kangin fan but not stop being a self-proclaimed E.L.F.
@the 8th comment. I agree, its selfish, and even worse when its a hit and run. But, hey, you said that he was drunk right. so under that kind of circumstance isn't it normal to be like shocked and drive away... maybe not for some people... but to me, yes. (and im not being biased.) Well, at least he has the courage to turn himself in later... (your ass is probably a thousand times huger than a rat's ass. you fitch.)
@the 9th comment. Brush up on your fucking english first its 'you're' not "your". Why would he be a waste of space. Think back, he is a great singer. Please, no one can deny the fact that Kangin has a great voice, and he is important in Super Junior. Please, are you Leeteuk, Heechul, Hankyung, Yesung, Shindong, Sungmin, Eunhyuk, Donghae, Siwon, Ryeowook, Kibum or Kyuhyun? WHAT MAKES YOU THINK THAT SUPER JUNIOR WOULD NOT MISS HIM.
@the 10th comment. Don't make me laugh, seriously. common SINCE? if we have an IQ of street pigeons... then i guess you have a brain of dinosaurs. Dinosaurs are huge and scary but they their brains are even smaller than that of an ant, if you would compare the ratio. Yes, Kangin does have a brain, if he doesn't then he would not be here, getting himself into this accident, and im sure he would not try to commit suicide, even if he's depressed, he has his family, his members, the korean E.L.F.s and all his fans and E.L.F.s worldwide to support him.(even without those that i had mentioned before.)
@the 11th comment. Yeah, he deserves it, its his own mistake for drink-driving and for the hit and run. But he'll be alright, because he's not being dumb...what do you call it. A moment of folly? well, its just my own opinions, like how everyone goes around saying its their own opinion after saying really hurtful things and try to make things look nicer like its just their own thoughts.

[I shall start a petition to lock up the netizens.] (Y)
GO AHEAD.
RIGHT NOW.
I'LL SIGN IT RIGHT AWAY.

Kangin, I love you.
P.S. i know this post is really difficult to read and there might be alot of spelling and grammar mistakes. skip it if you want to. i dont fucking care.

期望越大，失望越大。
i think its totally not worth wasting your tears over your results.
its not worth wasting your time regretting.
when theres nothing much you can do about it.
i know its kind of hypocritical saying this when i emo-ed about my 53/100 for math.
its like natural and normal to be sad, to cry when you don't do well.
but yeah...
its not worth.
why do we also like to compare our results.
人比人，气死人。
like really, when others get lower than you, you feel happy. (now, come on don't lie, if you don't feel the tiniest bit happy when you did better than someone else then...you're not human.)

English- 75
Chinese- 63..
Math-53
Science-57
Geography- 73
History- 69
E. Lit- 60

overall % - 65.
B3.
you know i actually think that its not that bad.
i think that a B3 is not that bad.
because, i always knew that im not smart.
i'm really not smart, like ever since young, my results are just so-so.
it was never wow and amazing and oh-so-good.
but when everyone around you gets a higher B3 and A2 and everything else.
it makes me feel... like im dumb even when i think its okay.
its like how i didnt think im fat and im acceptable weight but everyone around me is skinny so i feel fat.
its the same logic.

知足常乐，百忍成金。
im going to be contented with my 65% and stop being annoyed by annoying fitches around me and stop saying the f-word in every sentence.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

yay!
and so, im going to thailandddd in a few hours time!
i want super show 1 the dvd, dont don and maybe super junior 05 too.
:D:D:D
and im just gonna grow fatter in this 3 days.
and come back fat and short to get my result, my sucky results.
i think i failed english 1 and 2, math (for sure), science, history (fuck) D:
and i want to know how much i got for GEOG!!!!

well well, i'll be disconnected from the world.

games carnival was fun *winks*
gen, you do get the obvious wink right.
lol @ our sitting at staircase thing :D
its so manga-y :D:D:D
hahaha! :D

Thursday, October 15, 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DONGHAE!!!!!!

saengil chulk ha hamnida!!!!!!
donghae! without all the bias-ness, you're really the SHUAI-EST in suju.
like reallly!
(although the whole of super junior is like super good-looking like heechul.)
and, you are so damn cute :D
contiune to play with eunhyukkie more :D:D:D
and please.
propose to eunhyuk please.
and i don't like kihae ))))):
and sihae ))):
you belong to eunhyuk like how eunhyuk belongs to you okay! ^^
i love you donghae!!
continue to sing and dance to make your dad proud and us elfs too.
sapphire blue sea will always be as beautiful and as spectacular forever, because super junior will not stop!
and donghae, you make it better 928679049175999 times with your smileee and your everything!
saranghae.
E.L.F.s will always be there for you~

HAPPPY BIRTHDAY DONGHAE ^^

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

雌雄同体 is a song that is so heechul.

PM 7点
镜子前的自己
琢磨属于自己的美丽
轻轻刮去嘴角胡青
画上我本性
淡紫色眼影
粉色双唇的喃喃自语
Da la la di la da n…

领带要配苏格兰裙
和火一般的羽毛围巾
只是我仍在反复考虑
搭配及号香精做今晚的内衣
即使到最后你还是看不清
即使到最后你还是看不清

[我要你看到我
你不该猜测应该享受
我要你爱上我
你不该猜测应该爱我
我可以是男是女
可以漂移不定
可以调整百分比
只要你爱我一切都没问题
只要你爱我一切都没问题]

与其让你了解我
我宁愿我是一个谜
一个解不开的难题
真与假的秘密
扣你心弦的游戏
模仿你或和你变成成对比
参加你理想的爱情游戏
你也许避开我唯恐不及
你也许把我当作异形
可是你如何真的确定
灵魂找到自己的样貌和身体
发现自己原来的雌雄同体
发现自己原来的雌雄同体

[我要你看到我
你不该猜测应该享受
我要你爱上我
你不该猜测应该爱我
我可以是男是女
可以漂移不定
可以调整百分比
只要你爱我一切都没问题
只要你爱我一切都没问题]

PM 7点
镜子前的自己
琢磨属于自己的美丽
轻轻刮去嘴角胡青
画上我本性淡紫色眼影
粉色双唇的喃喃自语
Da la la di la da n…

ESPECIALLY THE CHORUS!
ITS LIKE HEECHUL SINGING THAT TO HANKYUNG!
:D
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why do i seem to always be learning from people younger than me?
-,-
i feel so ______.
fill in that stupid blank for me idk whats supposed to be in there.
LSM is awesome.

I FORGOT.
SINCE ITS THE 14TH ALREADY.

HAPPPPPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH!!!!! :D

HEEHEE.

yay.
HAPPY 7TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY :D
to me, myself and i

whoo.
todayyy was awesome.
that stimulator thingy was damn fun lol.
though i wasted like $10 on it.
oh well.
and then kbox was kinda fun too.
minus the retarded slow thingy and the oh-so-nice chairs and ew-ness of the fruit thingy syrup on my jacket.
never sing so many mayday songs.
today like all jay chou songs lol.
AND OF COURSE WE SAND BEIPAN!!!
AND WANG FEI.
lol. :D

then yeah...
wanted to watch D.I.E. Again but ah i want to sleep liao la.
tmr.
bugis with amanda and gen.

T.T
damn?

Monday, October 12, 2009

yay.
im 14.
actually no.
i only turn fourteen at 11+.
i spent my birthday watching 3 epidsodes of rainbow romance and idk how many episodes or D.I.E. Again.
ah i prefer hongkong dramas :D
i guess?
because heechul did not appear in the first 3 episodes and i got bored.
yay.

IM VEH RICH NOW.
TEEHEE (((:
Dad gave me $300!
Mum gave me $50 (for kbox tmr) and she's supposed to buy something else that i haven thought of.
Brother - kns. he in army wait friday...
Aunt- she was supposed to sponsor my kbox and shopping. but she's still in K.L. -,-
yay.
thanks for the prezzies too my dear dear friends.
im waiting for my hee necklace ziting.
:D:D:D:D:D
YAY.
I LOVE ZITING'S PRESENT THE MOST :D
and peck yee's pencil case.
LIKE FINALLY ANOTHER PENCIL CASE FOR MY MARKERS :D
yayayay.
and its not done.
i want jane's gloomy bear (are you even going to buy it for me. no wait. your cousin)
and gen's prez tmr.
and lianne, sarah, sonia's present on dah 29th!

YAY.
i feel so loved.
birthday dinner = PASATAMANIAAAAAA (L)
seriously.
i LOVELOVE like LOVE pastamania.
prawn aglio :D:D:D:D
the aglio thingy is the only pasta that i will eat in my life.
i think those weird creamy white creamy stuff is just plain disgusting
and i hate tomatoes which = i hate tomato sauce = those weird red sauce thingy on dah pasta.
so that aglio thingy is like plainnnn with GARLIC.
LOTZAAAA GARLIC
im not a vampire ^^
somehow, i dont feel like drinking blood today ^^

Sunday, October 11, 2009

YAY.
I'LL BE 14 IN A FEW HOURS :D:D:D:D

saying goodbye to 13 lol.
HAHA.
13 years not very long la huh.

happy birthday trini.
be a nicer person in your 14th year.

i dreamt of heechul holding my hand and hanchul kissing ^^
the heechul abandoning me for hankyung is okay :D

Saturday, October 10, 2009

i seriously think im crazy now.
just now.
this image flashed through my mind.

someone (i can't see the face) is holding this very sharp penknife.
then he/she plunges it down his/her thigh.
then very very VERY thick blood starts flowing down.
the blood is like SUPER THICK and DEEEP DEEEEEP RED.
its like red until can become black..
then he/she slashes her thigh in one line.
then the blood flows down in one streak.
then.
ITS GONE.

LIKE WTH???
i know i like the taste of blood.
and i think thick blood would taste good.
but ew.
i will never 自残.

Friday, October 9, 2009

yay.
im going to fail physics.
):
i didnt do the coverging lens question. AGAIN.
and the stupid what semicircle thingy question i think i got zero for physics
chem was QUITE okay. i minus 5 marks le -,-
bio was not that difficult.
okay.

went to jb after school ^^
lets see.
it wasnt very good cause like half the day gone since we reached around 2+
foot massage :D
pedicure :D (i painted it HEECHUL pink :D!!!)
Golden Bride (HEEEEECHUL!!!)
Rainbow Romance (HEEEEEEECHUL!!! KIBUM!)
some weird show i forgot the name ( KANGIN!!!!)
and uh, some korean drama called 魂 and i bought it cause heechul sang some song called hun too, but uh its like about ghosts and revenge and how some girl possess another person so yeah i like.
what else.
super sinful dinner.

chilly crab!
butter prawn!
Kangkong!!!!!+ si mian dou :D:D:D
Oyster omelette!
Char kway tweo! :D
PASSION FRUIT JUICE!!!!!!!!

super sinful.
so much for dieting trini -,-

ah whatever.
my birthday is coming soon.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

its 10.
im going to sleep.
im very well prepared for science!
im very well-prepared to fail!
sounds positive eh.

i know i'll regret doing all these (reading yaoi manga, fics) when i should be studying when we get back our results.
i know i'll be like i shouldn't have done this and that.
but despite knowing i still did it..
haha....

so.
whatever, fail bah...
i just want to drink blood
not drink. like just have a taste of it.
even if its a little bit.
i dont like the pH7 taste of saliva in my mouth.
but saliva taste like water.
no wait.
forget it.
i just like the metallic of blood okay.
wonder why people dislike it :/
im not a vampire.
i like garlics
especially fried ones :D

will you cry if your idol dies?
i dont know how to express like what im thinking with words.
but really.
if you dont love your idol as bf material.
you dont love your idol just because he's your idol.
but you just love, lovelove him.
because he is who he is.
and its that kind of ' ah. he's so cute.' then you look up things about him.
and you make him your idol
because you like him
and then you realise over time.
your like becomes love.
why did it become lovelove like love...
when, you don't even know him.
and, i dont get it when people cry when their idols those things to entertain their fans.
like even when its funny and entertaining some crazy fans that i dont understand cry.
weird isn't it.
ridiculous.
i mean yeah, when they talk about their sad life and everything.
cry lor.
but.
ah whatever.
i love,love heechul
but i dont lovelovelove,love him.
i dont think anybody will understand me.

no ziting,gen,whoever.
its not about yixuan.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

FUCK.
IM GOING TO FAIL MATH
LIKE
HECK
I DONT CARE
IM NOT GOING TO BOTHER TO REVISE
I DONT KNOW HOW TO DO IT ANYWAY
SERIOUSLY WHY AM I SUCH A FUCKING EPIC FAIL IN MATHHHHHHH
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
THE STUPID EOY IS GOING TO PULL MY PATHETIC B4 61% TO A FUCKING C5
I DONT WANT A FUCKING C
OR MAYBE IT'LL BECOME A F9
I DONT KNOW
I CANT COUNT
I FAIL MATH.
FUCK.
FUCKKKKKKK
I DONT WANT TO FAIL.
SHIT.
IM GONNA BANG THE FUCKING WALL NOW.
BUT IT DOESNT HELP
COZ IT ONLY KILLS MORE BRAIN CELLS.
WHY DO WE EVEN NEED TO COUNT.
WHATS THE USE OF COUNTING
JUST BE HAPPY WITH LIFE AND LIVE ON YO
STOP COUNTING
FUCK
I AM EVEN NOT IN THE MOOD TO READ MY YAOI MANGA COZ IM GOING TO BURN MY TEXTBOOK NOW.
AND ALL THE REVISION PAPERS.
NOW
FIRE .
BURN.

Monday, October 5, 2009

damn damn damn damn damn
duck duck duck duck duck
because im going to fail my studid geog.

PLEASE I DONT WANT TO MEMORISE USELESS INFORMATION LIKE THE CASE STUDY FOR POLLUTION AND WATER RESOURCES.
AND OMFG I HAVENT STUDY MAPS YET.
AND OMFG I HAVENT MEMORISE WATER RESOURCES YET.

DAMN DUCK.
TRINI IS SO FUCKING FAILING.
ah.
die.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

i think im sick
i puked out everything i just ate for dinner.
and im afraid of drinking water now.
i'll just be tasting my own puke.
its disgusting.

i so so so hate chapter 9 of history.
its in 2 days.
):
SSSICC : DO.NOT.PANIC.
shall listen to jason ng.
ah but realllllllly.
im going to die for geog..
its the only C in my ppr now.
i didnt even get a stupid C for art.
must pull up to B4!!!
and my stupid history the 1%
if i dont pull up to A1
you see the headlines after 30th october
CHIJ. ST. NICHOLAS GIRLS' SCHOOL: SECONDARY 2 GIRL COMMITS SUICIDE WITHOUT GETTING A1 FOR HISTORY.
it won't even be the headlines lawl.
baichi hahaha

I NEED TO REMEMBER CHAPTER 7,8 ):
and Pollution.
ALL I CAN REMEMBER IS ABOUT OIL SPILLS and how it spreads over a large surface area and is very difficult to be broken down therefore it takes a long time and is very costly to clean up. Like the Exxon Valdez Oil Spill. oil spills also threathen the livelihood of fishermen as well as the fishing industry. When the spilled oil reaches a tourist resort along a coast, it dirties the beach and make it unattractive to the tourists. and poisons in industrial waste can accumulate in the bodies of fishes. these poisons can be passed on to us when we consume the contaminated animals. People may suffer from typhoid and cholera. Also, water plants cannot photosynthesise as the chemicals encourage algae growth on the river surface which causes the sunlight being unable to reach the plants. The animals that depend these plants to survive will also be affected. Oil spills endanger the lives of aquatic animals as a layer of oil spreads over the water surface. When animals such as sea birds and sea mammals come into contact with the oil. The oil will stick on its feathers and fur. This removes the air trapped in by the feather and fur causing them to freeze to death as the air trapped serves as an insulation. The oil also clogs up the birds' feathers and prevents them from flying or floating on the water. This might cause the birds to drown.

YAY.
and its only the oil spills part.

shit i just ate strawberry ice cream and i feel like puking again -,-

Friday, October 2, 2009

wow.
people are such fakers.
okay i mean yeah...
when you were 'friends' and now you're not.
all the past stuff comes out.
and oh actually when we were 'friends' i had already hated you.
then blah the other person goes. ' do you know that you did many things that had hurt me? have you ever thought that everything you do matters to me?'

ridiculous.
i should be studying.
but stalking is just so.
idk how to say lawl.
especially when people seem so happy in school and bitch around in their blog.
hey im a faker too!
who isnt?

aw jolly shandy. kit kat. kinder brueno. sweets.
SORRY LAAA.

I'LL BRING RUFFLES ON MONDAY. PROMISE.

less than 0.5% of alcohol.
i didn't get drunk :D

target don't like to look at me so i cant give her my buay song face.
plus i think it only works for people that i REALLY dont like.
kay fine i dont like target too.

LIKE SERIOUSLY
YOU SAY FOR US TO HEAR.
THEN SAY LOUDER LA.
SCARED ARH.
RETARDED.
WANT SAY GAN GAN SAY LA.
RIDICULOUS.
go go. go away to TJ and nevah come back.

tch.
its ridiculous how people move away to the balcony...
like really.
you make us feel as if we are the bad guys.
uhm, dont you people laugh, dont you people make noise too?
yeah so half of the class went to balcony to study.
study, more like gossiping hor.
whatever.
im happy with my own friends.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1aqzxpD_KpA

i just had to you know
i just had to watch that again.
SERIOUSLY I KNEW THAT HANCHUL WOULD KILL ME.

0.49- 1.01

theres this feeling in me that just seriously wants heechul to be mine.
haha.
how impossible ^^