
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
fuck.
fuck.
fuck.
fuck.
fuck.
fuck.
fuck.
fuck.
fuck.
fuck.
fuck.
fuck.
fuck.
seriously.
what the FUCK is wrong with me.
like really.
i feel like.
crap.
i cant study well, im too fat, im too short, i cant manage relationships well, i need anger management lessons, i should stop stalking people (i dont even know why i want to know so much about certain people like i used to know why, i used to, but what the fuck happened to me), i need to start doing my homework, i need to stop being an idiot, i need to stop finding myself fucked up, i need to stop screwing my already screwed up life, i need to stop reading fanfics, i need to stop fangirling, i need to stop being so delusional, i need to stop being such a fucked up fucking bitch, i need to stop being a self-proclaimed elf, i need to stop loving suju, i need to start practising my piano more, i need to stop failing stuff, i need to stop having these mood swings, i need to stop being me.
(seriously, i question myself, am i even pro at one single thing? just one. just one.
and the answer is fucking no. why. i ask myself. why. but the oh-so-dumb trini just cant find an answer. nope. no answer.)
and i dont even know what caused these moodswings. i dont know why im doing this.
and i think, i dont even know myself.
?You're like a queen and beautiful
10:04 PM