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you pulled me back
caught me and left me hanging
in your pocket
you're my worst salvation, baby.
oh i wish i was not the one to walk away
to live life your way.

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Thursday, July 30, 2009

mugging for geog.
geog.geog.geog.
IM FUCKING FAILING IT.
FUCK.
DDDDDD:
howhowhowhow
i CANT FAIL GEOG AGAIN.
-mugs once again-
maybe i should sleep at 10.30 and wake up at 3 or sumthing :/
impossible

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

All I needed was a simple good luck from you.

I SCREWED UP MY PIANO EXAM YEAH.
FUCKING SCREWED IT UP.
I THINK I FAILED.
NAHH, 100% GUARANTEE CHOP FAIL.

skipped the physics test yay?
coz i never ever listened during physics lessons.
OOOOOO
MR. LEOW JOINED INFOCOMM!!!!!
he's damn cute la.
LOL.
his shy smile AHAHHAHAH
the cutest physics teacher ever.
AHAHA
and alex teoh also.
he goes
"HOHOHO, MERRY CHRISTMAS"
when you give him forms.
Infocomm club got the 2 cutest science teachers ever.
LOL.
although they cant really teach well
(maybe alex can. yeah he can but i dont understand his handwriting and leowsy is lousy.)

IM FUCKING HAPPY I SKIPPED VOLLEYBALL TODAYYYY.
YAYYYY
HECK I SHOULD REALLY STOP SAYING FUCK
JUST DID
HAHAHA.
AND I THINK I SHOULD DO THE INFOCOMM HOMEWORK -________________-
OFF TO RESEARCH ON BoA (ITS THE RESEARCH YO)
AND THAT VIDEOGRAPHY TEACHER ACTUALLY KNOWS ABIT(NOTE THE ABIT)ABOUT KPOP
YEAH.

GEN'S BDAE IN ONE WEEEEK.
KBOX KBOXXXX
AND UHH, TMR IS SEC 4 FAREWELL.
I DONT REALLY CARE THOUGH.

노노노노노 하

Monday, July 27, 2009

piano exam in two more days.
i think i'll fail it.
or maybe not.
i need to study geog like siao
and rah
i haven even started on ting xie yet
and its tmr.
LMAO

right.
IM HAPPY >DDDD
25/30 FOR DAH RECENT MATH TEST!!!!
ITS LIKE WOW!
WHEEE

BUT DAMNIT MRS YEO IS NOT GONNA TEACH US AGAIN
LATER COME ONE LIKE SEAN LEE I DIE GIVE YOU SEE.

I SHOULD STUDY TING XIE YEAH

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ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠHEECHUL SARANGHAEㅠㅠ
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OH i swear KOREAN netizens love to do this
LOL


edit/: i realise that the font goes back to the normal font i use when i post!

Friday, July 24, 2009

i just read through all my blog posts from the start of this year.
and i realised i changed.
ALOT.
like really alot.

haha.

and what can i do about it?
nothing so yeah
bear with it.

i feel so effin tired

eeteuk wants to get married.
D<

he should though.
but *heartbreaks*
):

he can marry kangin! >D

leader-sshi. ):

i feel so accomplished today :DDD
EIGHT ROUNDS :D
i did it like finally im so proud of myself
TEEHEE

uhh, im gonna fail english compre T.T
damnit
whut else
uhhh
leow is cute and wierd
he never answers your question.
LOL.

it's gonna be difficult for me to stop being an unofficial E.L.F.
i love suju too much.
i think?
:/

Thursday, July 23, 2009

HAPPY SPECIAL DAYYY.
plain jane.

anyway.
AMANDA LOH GOT H1N1.
wow.
i should be quarantined.
totally should be
damnit
i dont want the compre test

videography is freaking boring lah..
and im not in the mood to blog anymore
especially when blogger went crazy and the box to type in is effin small.

leow is cute
teoh is cute

i think lww is the only un-cute science teacher lor.

i think i got h1n1
aloh got no fever also have
which means i might get it too.
>D

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Never thought i would fall in love, love, love, love
But it grew from a simple crush, crush, crush, crush
Being without you girl i was all messed up, up, up, up
When you walked out you said you had enough, nough ,nough, nough
Been a fool, girl i know
Didn't expect this is how things would go
Maybe in time, you'll change your mind
Now looking back i wish i could rewind
Because..
I can't sleep till you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more
Oh, i stay up till you're next to me
Till this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia, ah~ (X4)
I, I just can't go to sleep
Cause it's like i've fallen for you
It's getting way too deep
And i know that it's love
Because..
I can't sleep till you're next to me
No i can't live without you no more
Oh, i stay up till you're next to me
Till this house feels like it did before
Feels like insomnia, ah~ (X4)

[ryeowookie's part (:]

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

I'm really happy today.
its like you care for me somehow.
am i falling for you all over again?

Sunday, July 19, 2009

FEELS LIKE INSOMNIAAAA AHHHH
I CANT SLEEP NOW WHEN IM SUPPOSED TO.
THANKS TO DEAR RYEOWOOK'S SEXYNESS.
PLEASE
RYEOWOOK IS SO SEXY
ITS NOT FUNNNEH
AND THEY SHOULD ENGAGE A PRETTIER DANCER WTF.

im too lazy to blog about what happened in a.loh's house today.
anyway her house rocks yeah.

RYEOWOOK IS SEXY.
GET THAT PEOPLE?
HE'S NOT ONLY CUTE.
BUT ALSO SEXY

HEECHUL SHALL NEVER REPLACE RYEOWOOK'S PLACE IN MY HEART.

SEXY RYEOWOOK PWNS ALL.

TYVM.
I LOVE RYEOWOOK.
THE SEXY AND CUTE HIM.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Ryeowook, OH MY GOD, he sang Wheesung remake of craig david 'insomnia'.... There was a girl, with almost no clothes ancing with him on stage. With RYEOWOOK, he was actually touching her hips, caressing her leg (well faking it) and such. I'm still traumatised xD Other than that, he sang it well, but his voice was kind of strange, maybe the mic deforming it, idk..

OH MY GOD.
WHUTTT
RYEOWOOKIE.
OMG.
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I BET HE BLUSHED WHILE "CARESSING" THAT DANCER'S LEGS -________-
INSOMNIA BY RYEOWOOKIE = 100X BETTER THAN WHEESUNG

Friday, July 17, 2009

OMG
SUJU IS HAVING SUPER SHOW 2 NOW

la, math review test was easy
but my stupid standard form careless, one mark fly ):
english descriptive writing = im prepared to fail tyvm

went to jb after school.
bought so many shows todayyy

Series:
absolute boyfriend :D
BEETHOVEN'S VIRUS!!!!!
Who are you? (((:

DVD:
Angels and Demons (like finalllly)
Night at the museum 2
shinjiku incident
Knowing.
other random shows my dad bought

rahhh.
im so starting on BEETHOVEN'S VIRUS TOMORROW!!!
and watch angels and demons like later.

whee~
i love angels and demons.

rah, sitting next to jane is really......
fun?
HAHAHHA.
but i can already feel my grades dropping.
i only listened to ONE physics lesson so far
and that physics lesson is the very first lesson, i was still sitting beside jyeting
hahhaa.

ran 6 rounds without stopping during recess.
its an accomplishment for me!!!!!
WITHOUT STOPPING LEH
heehee, but i only lost like a little more than half a kg after so long
but my bathroom scale says that i lost 2.5 kg after running for so long
i want to believe my bathroom scale...
but yeah ):

Thursday, July 16, 2009

rah
im dead for math tmr
AND DEAR DESCRIPTIVE WRITING.

oh well.
17/30.
stupid jason ng put 17/20
make me so happy for nothing.

hahahha.
lalalla.
kns gen
make me wake up so early
reach school so early bout 6:20
then the school gate not open -___________-
yeahyeah.

dont feel like saying anything
ahahha.

i love fangirling :D
and i need to stop saying fuck.
opps i just did :D

Monday, July 13, 2009

HAPPY 4TH MONTH ANNIVERSARY TO MEEEEE.

1!!!1ONEONE!!!!111ONE!111ONE

1) my NEW bathroom scale is spoilt.
2) the school's weighing machine is spoilt.
3) i really lost weight.


i have came to a conclusion: MY NEW BATHROOM SCALE IS SPOILT.

*needs to get refund*

omg today got back chem paper and geez.
but im happy i didnt fail *jumps*
i should study more.

i should run more.
im not THATTT obsessed with my weight, but im simply too fat.
i know you people agree, stop lying.

btw.
at my disclaimer, named whatever.
i said reading and not tagging is acceptable.
oh fine it is.
BUT.
it was meant for stalkers.
(if anyone actually stalks me)
FINE.
i know i dont tag when i read
(when im a stalker AND when im not)

stalking HAD been my favorite past-time.
but oh wow, everyone loves privating and friend-locking.
i lost my passion and interest for stalking.
i should be some P.I. next time.
HAHA.

HAPPY FOURTH MONTH ANNIVERSARY TO ME ONCE AGAIN.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

rah.
melanie is offlineee.
nobody pei me tonight.
sigh.
still have one more hour to the tyra show then the criss angel show
i should do homework now
hahahhaa
lol whatever
i would much rather read fics (:
teehee

Saturday, July 11, 2009

rah.
im not very much into blogging these days.
there are nothing much to say anyway.
i love scented candles.
had always wanted to have one whole row of them lighted at night.
soo. uhh romantic ahahahha (:
well, uh things had been kinda complicated lately.
i think im falling in love with running.
lets run everyday.
nah, im not that obsessed with diet-ing.
ACTUALLY I AM BUT.
yeah whatever.
i shall just stick to the running on tues,wed and friday.
friday can run more.
ran 6 rounds + 5 minutes on threadmill.
ran with the rest.
yes the rest, sonia, sarah, lianne.
its weird how we are still good, nah, best friends, after so long.
like last year the supposedly super damn close 6 purity 07 also split.
but the not very supposedly close clique of mine remained.
even if _______ left.
lala, im beginning to change once again.
i shall do my homework at 2am, while watching the tyra show
i want to sleep at 5am.
is that even possible.

Friday, July 10, 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HEECHULLL.(pink your favorite!)
HEEEEE.
I LOVE YOU.
I REALLY DO.
HEENIM, ALL PETALS LOVE YOU.
NO ONE CAN EVER IMITATE YOU, COZ YOU'RE SO BUSY IMITATING OTHERS.
HAVE A GOOD NIGHT WITH HANKYUNG OKAY (TEEHEE)
OR MAYBE BE BOTH HANKYUNG AND SIWON.
NONO, SIHANCHUL MAY ROCK BUT I PREFER HANCHUL (:


heechul ah.
i always thought you were this crazy, ego person, but you're not.
you can sing well, and your COOL.
you can dance!
i somehow always notice you and see the way you dance in neorago when you appear.
the way you dance...
damn cute (:
heenim,
do you have another side?
or are you forever that crazy heechul. HEEE-chul.
MUYUKIGA KIM HEECHUL!!
SARANGHAEYO KIM HEECHUL!!
HEECHUL AH, SARANGHAE!!!

smile heechul, smile always, forever, petals and elfs will always be there for you.
saranghae, always be that crazy heechul that will make me laugh when im feeling down.
love you.





(the date and time is screwed. going to sleep, not goint to bother to fix it now. will fix it tmr, posted this on 10th July, 11:00PM (12 AM in korean time;heechul's bdae))

Thursday, July 9, 2009

i feel wrong.
i was ready to forget all about you.
you were already fading from my memory.
but fate just had to do it to me.
why.
why do i feel sad.
why would i feel sad.
why does the pain linger on.
its boring today, the lessons, but ahaha.
i laughed so much during lit when everybody were sleeping.
its funny to see people having that blank face trying to pretend to listen or when they just totally give up and sleep.
ahahha.
we were like "oh, chu wen give up liao." "shi yu also give up already" "jaclyn trying very hard" "ziting damn blank"
then ahaha, jane called nicole and jiawen.
LOL.
i smsed jaclyn "wake up la" then lol she sleep sleep sleep then reach her hand into her pocket and then turn around and give me the wtf face
aHAHAHAHHAHA. omg its damn fun
ahahha.
then i turn around peck yee and chloe also sleeping.
then i smsed peck yee "wake up heee"
LOL, then i felt her sitting up AHAHHAHAHA.
whee its so fun.
ahahaha.
shit theres lit test tmr ):
damnit.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

this is the first time i actually stole a quiz. LOL

coz quizzes are dumb this one is cute ahaha

SNGS TEST

1. [x] You have visited SNGS at least thrice after graduating (OBVIOUSLY.)

2. [x] You know the name of every class, from charity to wisdom (who don't know lah)

3. [x] You know who "uncle mobeen" is, or is supposed to be (uh puh-lease duhhh.)

4. [x] You spent most of your recess patronizing the orange bowl stall (IN PRIMARY SCHOOL. EVERYDAY THANKS TO MRS.HUM)

5. [x] You spent more pocket money on fried food Wednesdays than on the other 4 days(LOL. in primary school too..)

6. [x] You know which color nametag represents which batch(who doesnt?)

7. [x] You ''cut queue'' during recess, especially on Weds (UH DUHHHHHH.)

8. [x] You cut queue by asking your friend to buy for you, or by getting them to let you stand in front of them(isnt that how we do it?)

9. [ ] Your skirt was always too short (i'm a very guai girl ever since primary 1.)

10. [ ] You hardly wore your name tag after sec1(as i said im a very guai girl)

11. [ ] You made every excuse to not change out of your PE attire (for what?)

12. [x] You remember the family dance (THEY MADE US DANCE IT FOR ONE WHOLE MONTH DAMN THEM WHAT WAS THAT WOMAN'S NAME? ANGES SOMETHING. I STILL REMEMBER. ONE TWO PELVIC TURN. PUKES.)

13. [x] You napped/slept during afternoon school assembly periods in the hall (uh duhh.)

14. [ ] You would hide below the old/new specs stand if you were late and then join your class before the teacher marked attendance (Im a GUAI GUAI GIRL. never late)

15. [x] You played pepsi cola one two three//hopscotch//five stones in school (Not really. Now it's catching and hide and seek :D)(we always played it in primary2)

16. [ ] You used to think cat high guys CMI

17. [ ] You think SNGS uniform is one of the nicest(okayyy la)

18. [ ] You got sent to stand outside your classroom as punishment (i told you im guai and nice right)

19. [ ] You know at least one lesbian couple(i know there are les in our school, band seniors... ahahha)

20. [x] You survived on macs and dou hua after school

21. [x] You got away with eating in class (of course)

22. [x] You smuggled food past the prefects on guard at the canteen staircases (the prefects are just blind la)

23. [x] You had at least 1 prefect friend who would let you smuggle food past them (ahaha obviously)

24. [x] If you were a prefect, you let your friends smuggle food past you(yes. of course TEEHEE)
25. [x] You were sent to school by your parents everyday(my mum still send me to school everyday.)

26. [x] You used ''father barre'' as a reference point for your parents to pick you up from school

27. [ ] You know who the 24/7 caretakers of the school are

28. [ ] You hated Chinese literature lessons (i hated last year the c.lit. dujia -___-)

29. [ ] You can remember the tune but can’t remember the lyrics of the school song (hello 8 years. won't i remember)

30. [x] You recited the students' pledge daily during morning assembly (Haha, not now last time...)

31. [x] You never followed the prefect's recital of the national and students' pledges because it was always too slow and contained excessive pauses(esp. the primart school ones)

32. [x] You never understood why you had to tie up your hair when it reached the collar (all the corrupted prefects -____-)

33. [ ] You wore coloured sports bra

34. [x] You always wear shorts under your pinafore (i know a.loh dont!)

35. [ ] Your class ever scared a teacher away


36. [ ] Your class ever made a teacher cry (i dont mind trying that!)

37. [ ] Your mum/sister was an ''old girl''

38. [x] You wore PE shirts on non-PE days and knew it was ''illegal'' (used to)

39. [x] You miss SNGS canteen food (i will)

40. [x] Your pencil case was stuffed with colored pens and markers (aahhaha my habit of buying markers every monday!)

41. [x] you still own at least 2 pairs of SNGS shorts(i got like 7)

42. [x] You still wear your House/PE t shirt occasionally(to sleep)

43. [ ] You made a mess of the kitchen/home econs lab (nevehhh A1 for homec yo)

44. [x] You slept over in the MPR before(CCA CAMP)

45. [ ] You cheated on every Chinese CT/Chinese literature test (nevearhh)

46. [ ] You love the iced milo/iced tea from SNGS(they are freaking diluted)

47. [x] Your class always had someone say "class stand, greet the teacher" (every class have what)

48. [x] You were taught to bow to teachers

49. [x] You will send your daughter(s) to SNGS

50. [x] You wish you could relive it all over again. (Rather, I would want to stay in st. nicks forever)

sigh
i feel so useless.
im telling you its natural reaction to run away/scream when those fucking balls fly towards me.
grah.
im beginning to like LJ more.
but i still LOVE BLOGGER more than LJ.
made that LJ to add people (:
but actually, more for adding people to read fics.
my chappati and curry rocksss (:
was damn xin tong la.
my chappati fry until so nice then box too small gotta fold T.T
ate it for lunch :D
just had piano and whee didnt get scolded.
changed seats today.
i miss jyeting's random weird funny chinese
but my chinese will improve I THINK.
BUT MAYBE IT STILL WONT LA.
whatever.
i need to learn to stop laughing in class

Monday, July 6, 2009

spent the whole day out todayyy.
went out in the morning go to northpoint
sat outside the library like some loner before gen and mt came.
there was this crazy girl quite young i guess abusing her polar bear.
please she threw it around like siao
keep aiming at us eh!
the stupid bear hit me twice -______-
stupid girl
then we realised the lib opens at 11 and not 10 lol
so we went to starbuckkks.
drank mocha and bought the lollipop!!
omg i love the starbucks lollipop
ahaha, then go walk walk, bought a belt with gen six dollars share ahaha.
SO WE SHARE THE BELT GEN, ITS NOT MINE :D
then bought eunice her bdae prez.
then finalllly went to the library and finished math homework :D
and then borrowed some xiao shuo.
then walk walk walk.
went to comics connection and bought another SUJU POSTER :D:D:D
then gen, mt and me bought the same ring, its plain then engrave our name on it.
its nice okayyy.
yeah then went to look for my bro at yishun mrt with mt trained to dobby ghaut.
mt left at amk.
going out with my brother is funfunfun.
ahaha.
went to arcade.
ahahha
then watched transformers.
its okay la. since i thought that its not nice at first but it turned out quite alright.
BUT I STILL WANT TO WATCH ICE AGE 3 D:!
the squirrel damn cute la.
yeahyeah.
its a fun day (:

Saturday, July 4, 2009

Baby I just want to love you
You open up my heart...
So I
I know and I believe in love at first sight.
When I open my eyes in the morning
I can feel the kiss that left me in last night's dream.
That feeling is still there and I smile all day thinking about you.
So I pray for you oh so I
So I promise you oh so I
I promise you everything.
I am going to believe that it's you
(I'm going to believe that it's you)
Will you come to me
I want to be just a little closer to your embrace
Oh I love you my love
I'm always going to be this way
Then and now those words still make my heart race,You love me.
I wait but am afraid that this feeling of emptiness might just be my own selfishness.
Even if I'm afraid of lonliness, I genuinely want you.
So I pray for you oh so I
So I promise you oh so I
I promise you everything.
I am going to believe that it's you
(I'm going to believe that it's you)
Will you come to me I want to be just a little closer to your embrace
Oh I love you my love
I'm always going to be this way
You're the only one who makes my heart race and the only one for me
I love you so much like this I love you, and I'm always so thankful
So I pray for you oh so I
So I promise you oh so I
I promise you everything.
I am going to believe that it's you
(I'm going to believe that it's you)
Will you come to me
I want to be just a little closer to your embrace
Oh I love you my love I'm always going to be this way
So I pray for you oh so I
So I promise you oh so I
I promise you everything.
I am going to believe that it's you
(I'm going to believe that it's you)
Will you come to me
I want to be just a little closer to your embrace
Oh I love you my love I'm always going to be this way
So.. I love you

why is everybody moving to lj?
is it that nice :/
i dont think i'll ever move to lj.
blogger is much easier.
right.
and then people keep friend-locking.
isnt a blog for people to know more about you, and what happens to your life?
then? why friend-lock it.
since your friends would already know everything that happens to you.
close friends that is.
oh well, its just fustrating how you want to read someone's blog but they private it. friend-lock it.
its just, dumb.
not saying this to anyone, its just how i feel bout the friend-locking thing, so many people are doing it.

Friday, July 3, 2009

ignore the post below.
im too lazy to delete it.
im sick and tired of it.
stop that crap alright.
im not going to care anymore okay.
no, im not trying to sound like leow okay.
i think i should i should just forget about talking to you anymore.
and maybe go back to how we were like that time.
forget it, really.
all this crap is too tiring.
and i still have to survive term3 with her -______________-
right, its not so bad ISN'T IT?
-_____-
maybe.
an unknown person should not affect me so much, why should i care about how another person feels when she don't even know that i exists.
okay fine maybe she knows that i read her blog and i exist.
but whatever.
and i just so happen to be a potential stalker but im not one.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

FUCK YOU LIN YI CHEN
FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK YOU.
FUCK FUCK FUCK YOU, LIN YI CHEN, ARIEL LIN WHATEVER YOUR FUCKING NAME IS.
HOW COULD SHE?
I KNOW IM FUCKING HELL OVER REACTING.
WHAT IF THEY GET MARRIED SOMEDAY,WILL I KILL MYSELF.
DONGHAE AND SIWON....
HOW COULD SHE ZHU DONG GO HOLD HAE'S HAND, AND HUG SIWON,
AND THE WORST OF ALL
PUT HER FUCKING HEAD ON DONGHAE'S SHOULDER AND "SLEEP"
ITS A FUCKING MV YES.
JUST ONE FUCKING MV.
IDK WHY IM OVER REACTING.
BUT YEAH.
IM PISSED.
FUCK YOU, ARIEL LIN, LIN YI CHEN OR WHATEVER FUCKING NAME YOU HAVE.

如愿以偿却不肯承认的痛苦
great.
so im sitting with jane -_______-
wow.
that is..
im speechless.
whatever.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

"Till sapphire blue balloons cover the whole world, super junior will not stop."
park jung soo

even if its him performing as leeteuk or living as park jungsoo, he's still the same person, the same guy with that cute dimple, that guy that love his dongsaengs so much, that guy that would always be super junior's awesome leader. twenty-six years ago, this angel desended from heaven to earth on that particular rainy day, today, twenty-six years later, he's still that same angel that his family loves, that now, we, elfs love so much, for he takes care of the members selflessly, making sure that they sleep well even if he has insomnia.

today, we celebrate this angel's birthday.
saengil chulka hamnida, park jung soo.


whatever it might be, whoever is sad, eeteuk or park jung soo, we love you.
elfs loves you.
everyone loves you.
winter is too long teukie.
today is your birthday.
be happy.
saranghae.



i had alot of things to say...
but its not coming out.
i dont feel like typing it out.

there's something very wrong with me.
all these sudden mood swings.
what is happening to me.
i feel like sleeping and never waking up.
i am in no mood to study for chem, fine i'll just fail that test.
nobody really cares anyway.
my mum? she wont really know.
until the ppr comes.
like all the other tests that i failed.
i admit, i suck, im a loser, i really just suck so much i should just disappear and never come back.
but where can i go.
i know i suck.
how can anyone have this ridiculous phobia of a fucking ball?
its just a ball for godness sake.
you wont die when it hits you.
its just volleyball girl.
you wont die playing it.
its just one fucking ball.
at most you'll just get disfigured.
not like im even pretty of even normal looking in the first place.
and thats why i hate mirrors.
i hate reflections.
i hate shiny objects.
they show me how i look like, that face in the mirror just makes me want to puke.
i dont care if you think that im such a bitch, bitching about all these ridiculous and stupid stuff.
but i have to let it out somewhere right.
theres no where else.
is it possible to go to the beach and shout like crazy?
its impossible, i would want to try it someday though.
those tears, unknown tears, falling for no particular reason, why?