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Tuesday, June 30, 2009

OMG.
YOU KNOW.
OH.MY.GOD?
GRAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
THIS IS FREAKING HELL THE MOST EMBARRASSING DAY OF MY LIFE.
IM SERIOUS.
FREAKING FUCKING SERIOUS.
RIGHT.
TODAY, WENT TO GEN'S HOUSE TO STUDY CHEM ALTHOUGH IT DIDNT REALLY WORK, ENDED UP CRAPPING AND READING YAOI MANGA.
so today is the first day i got up a freaking bus with so many people at the bus stop.
and then the bus come walk walk walk then omg bus full cannot go in -_____-
buttt. luckilyyyy, another bus like within 5 mins and we got to sit down at the back.
BUT IT WAS THAT FUCKING BUS.
GEN AND MT DIDNT TELL ME WHICH STOP WE ARE GOING TO GET DOWN.
THEN MY BAG ON THE FLOOR COZ I SITTING AT CORNER NO SPACE.
THEN I HOLDING SCIENCE FILE SOMEMORE.
THEN THEY SUDDENLY GOT DOWN THEN I WAS LIKE
OH MY FUCKINGGG GOD. FUCK FUCK FUCK. SHIT. WLAO KNSKNSKNSKNS. FUCK SHIT.
I RANNNN DOWN, MY BAG DROPPED, MY SWEETS DROP, MY WHOLE STACK OF TWO DOLLAR NOTES ALMOST DROPPED AND EVERY SINGLE PERSON IN THE BUS WAS LAUGHING AT ME.
AND THEY ARE ALL FROM ST NICKS. SEC 1 TO SEC 3
WLAOOOOOOO, DAMMMMMMN EMBARRASSING CANNN.
I SWEAR I'LL NEVER WANT TO TAKE BUS AGAIN.
even if people call me loser, spoilt, WHATEVER.
)))):
i bet tomorrow people will tell their friends about this crappy sec 2 that dropped her bag and everything.
FUCK SIA.
right, lunch at gen's house was great.
her sister so cutee hahaha.
yeah, did a little bit of chem, memorised the what you call that?
carbonate + acids = salts + water + carbon dioxide.
yeah those crap.
then, got bored, needed the powerpoint.
thennn, WENT TO READ YAOI MANGA.
we forced mt to read AHHAHA
omg she's so tramatized!!
hahahaha.
damn funny

its fun
AND FREAKING EMBARRASSING.
but it was fun somehow, even if i totally throw face.

?You're like a queen and beautiful

7:59 PM

Monday, June 29, 2009

see. none of you people believe me lah
tell you people 7th july hand up then nobody believe me.
tsktsk.
damn i really need to finish lit now.

2 MORE DAYS. whoo

?You're like a queen and beautiful

4:51 PM

Sunday, June 28, 2009

GAH.
RAH.
I DONT WANT TO SLEEP EARLY ALL OVER AGAIN.
IM USED TO SLEEPING LATE ALREADY.
HEY I SLEPT AT 4.30 YESTERDAY!
I DONT WANT TO SLEEP NOW.
ITS NOT EVEN 12
OMG.
BUT DAD'S FORCING ME TO.
I HAVE TO SLEEP NOW.

anyway its time for HEESICA to rest already.
she work so hard during the hols she even fell sick
sigh.
goodbye my dear lovely holidays.
i love you
每一次和你分开
每一次 KISS YOU GOODBYE (:

ryeowookie sang that song during some sjm activity :D
so cuteee (:

BYE, MY EUNHAE,HANCHUL,KANGTEUK,KYUMIN,YEWOOK.

?You're like a queen and beautiful

10:45 PM

whoo. so late le!~
and im still awake.
theres something wrong with me.
how can i be awake at such a time.
but its worth it.
completed task 2 analysis, reasons.
im left with that stupid reflection.
and I FINISHED
BAOZHANGDUHOUGAN.
omgomgomg.
wheeee

?You're like a queen and beautiful

4:34 AM

Friday, June 26, 2009

AND MY DEAR LAPTOP WHO HAVE BEEN WITH ME FOR A YEAR AND SEVEN MONTHS IS THEREFORE CALLED HEESICA!~

inspired by Jane's laptop that is called CROWN.
which makes me think of heechul (rella/princess)
and then mt thought of intimate note.
cos i told her about naming my dear laptop.
yeah ahaha.

AND SO MY DEAR LAPTOP IS CALLED HEESICA ^^
*CLAPS*

?You're like a queen and beautiful

2:41 PM

theres this weird feeling again.
that kind of feeling that i cant explain you know.
too much angst from eunhae/hanchul.
i swear i'll finish baozhangduhougan tomorrow.
and i shall start on excel now...
3 more days
and so much undone work.
i dont understand chem.
i really don't.
i cant do the chem homework.
i will fail the chem test.
i will flunk term 3 like how i flunked term 2.
i will not study hard.
because...
studying hard doesnt work.
it just doesnt.
i'm so gonna fucking fail everything.
happy now?

?You're like a queen and beautiful

12:09 AM

Thursday, June 25, 2009

MY DEAR LAPTOP.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

I REALISED THAT I REALLY CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT YOU.

I DON'T KNOW HOW I SURVIVED THAT ONE AND A HALF DAY WITHOUT YOU BY MY SIDE (in front of me lah).

I FELT AS IF I WAS LIVING IN HELL ON EARTH.

AND I HAD TO SURVIVE ON MY BROTHER'S SUCKY COMPUTER.

SO WHAT IF IT HAD BIGGERRR AND NICER SPEAKERS AND A GAMER KEYBOARD AND A BIGGER SCREEN.

IT IS NOTHING COMPARED TO YOU.

ONLY YOU CAN MAKE FICS LOOK NICER AND MORE DELICIOUS TO READ.

IT SUCKS READING EUNHAE/HANCHUL/YEWOOK/KYUMIN/KANGTEUK ON MY BROTHER'S COMPUTER.

MY DEARR DEARR COMPUTER I PROMISE YOU I WONT GO TO WEIRD WEBSITES THAT HAVE LOTZA VIRUSES ANYMORE AND I WONT DOWNLOAD WEIRD GAMES ANYMORE.

BECAUSE I CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT YOU.

I DONT WANNA BE WITHOUT YOU com.

SARANGHAE, MY DEAR COMPUTER.

I SHALL THINK OF A NAME FOR YOU SOMEDAY.

INSTEAD OF JUST CALLING YOU COMPUTER.

*INSERT LOTS OF HEARTS HERE!*

LOTSLOTSLOTSLOTSLOTS OF LOVE,

TRINI♥

?You're like a queen and beautiful

5:18 PM

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

sigh.

my mood is now currently just like the weather.

MY LAPTOP DIED ON ME.

and people its not the no-battery-die-on-you.

its the i-dont-know-what-happen-it-just-died-and-it-dont-wanna-on kind of die on me okay.

so its at the repair centre thingy now.

it better be okay tmr

i still haven do excel yet.

BTW, IS THE DEADLINE EXTENDED? I REMEMBER MRS YEO SAYING SOMETHING ABOUT IT BEING EXTENDED SO WE CAN GO BACK TO SCHOOL AND ASK IF WE DONT KNOW HOW TO DO. THEREFORE WE HAND IN ON 7TH JULY.

IS IT STILL DUE ON MONDAY?

sigh.

i still have baozhangduhougan UNDONE.

and my history project. its in my laptop what if i cant get the data back O:

im so fucking fed up.

anywayyyy.

yesterday went out with mt.

went library first to look for book for history and then went to j8

we bought the same poster :D

SUPER SHOW POSTER

hahahhaaha.

$3 only leh so cheapppp.

so now i have THREE suju posters :D

WHEEEEEEEE

mt came over to my house~

hahahaha

i cried so much today.

HAHA

i bet none of you saw me crying before~

ryeowook loves doing this.

ps. be careful dont catch a cold ^^

so cute haahaha

teukie is so emo ):

?You're like a queen and beautiful

8:18 PM

Sunday, June 21, 2009

its 11:11 again.

i'm going crazy reflecting on how i stopped the dbsk fandom.

yeahyeah i know i suck as a fangirl.

but.

whatever.

i still have so much undone work...

sigh...

its still ryeowook's birthday (:

ryeowook ah, i don't know why i started loving you. or when i started loving you. but you mean so much to me now. fangirling like crazy in class, yelling that you are not short just that the other members are tall. and i don't even know the actual reason why i love you now. cute? can sing well? yeah, i guess.i dont want to stop loving you, i dont wanna stop loving suju. like how i stopped loving dbsk. all those false promises i made to myself that i would love dbsk forever and those money i spent on their album would not be wasted coz i love them. and now i'm craving for more suju stuff. will all those money go to waste too? will i love another band. shinee? nah. i dont know and no one knows. and all i can say now is that, i love you. now, and maybe forever.

?You're like a queen and beautiful

11:11 PM

ITS RYEOWOOK'S BIRTHDAY!

there's 13 of them if you are counting

HAHAHAHA!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYEOWOOKIE <3

I LOVE YOU (:

IM LIKE HIGHING NOW.

SO BYE.

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHA

IT'S RYEOWOOK'S BIRTHDAY

(and father's day)

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

?You're like a queen and beautiful

12:00 AM

Saturday, June 20, 2009

I'M BACK PEOPLE.

back and alive.

i love k.l. :D

i spent like 97.70 rm on suju

and thats cheap lor.

bought version C (inclusive of poster)

version B poster

ryeowook and kibum(for mt) handphone chain

and the photocards (pack of 24)

WHEE.

I WANTED TO BUY SUPER SHOW.

BUT SOLD OUT.

and theres no more dont don poster

and buying dont don album is too much

oh well

i bought a whole lot of stuff yeah.

teehee

and i still have a whole bunch of undone homework

shit.

FEW MORE HOURS TO RYEOWOOK'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!

?You're like a queen and beautiful

7:13 PM

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

dont miss me too much people.

im going.

going away.

heck im not dying la.

will be back on saturday night!

just in time to countdown to ryeowookie's birthday (:

but.

im bringing my laptop along

hahaha.

(but my brother will be using it most of the time i guess.)

(im just a perfect sister :D)

HAHA

oh well

i shall sleep now

coz my brother is and im a nice sister

so nice i dont wanna disturb him with all my typing and clicking.

so yeah

bye.

dont miss me :D

?You're like a queen and beautiful

12:05 AM

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

I forgot when it started
I don’t know why im like this
A day seems so long, and it doesn’t seem to have a end.
How does another morning come?
I don’t know.
I cant do anything, while not doing anything
I look at the slow time
Where are you?
What are you doing?
Because I only think of one person.
I know I shouldn’t be doing this
I know that I cant love you
My confession will make you go through more pain
I know I know
Even though I knew( I knew)
I cant do anything(cant)
I can only think of you
If I close my two eyes , or open them again
I can only think of one person
The memory I cant erase for one second
(even today)
I just think of you
I cant do anything, while not doing anything
I look at the slow time
Where are you?
What are doing?
Because I only think of one person
Because I think of that one person

?You're like a queen and beautiful

3:22 PM

You followed me annoyingly, and took a deep breath.
(took a breath)
Trying to catch me, who’s leaving you alone.
(catch)
I grabbed your shoulders tightly and loudly said” we through”
That the farewell poison has already
without you knowing
spread in my hear.
The disease where my love is slowly dying.
It hurts a little but I don’t want it to get better.
Every single memory is fading
Going back to the times when we were strangers
I want to rest now
Like having played with fire for a long time
And only ashes remained, everthing else burnt
(only ashes remained)
Like how even the first feelings have become faint.
Everything has become useless
(useless)
Facing you and taking your hands,
With a bitter smile, I said “please be happy.”
To find a person who will soothe and embrace the scars that I’ve left you.
The disease where my love is slowly dying.
It hurts a little but I don’t want it to get better.
Every single memory is fading
Going back to the times when we were strangers
I want to rest now
Though it hurts too much now, some day you might wipe your lips as a kiss triggers an unpleasant memory
Trying to erase the warmth you felt when I held you in my arms
Cold tears will wash you
The disease where my love is slowly dying.
It hurts a little but I don’t want it to get better.
Every single memory is fading
Going back to the times when we were strangers
I want to rest now
The disease where my love is slowly dying.
It hurts a little but I don’t want it to get better.
Every single memory is fading
Going back to the times when we were strangers
I want to rest now

?You're like a queen and beautiful

3:10 PM

its 11:11...

who's thinking about me?

and i really love the taste of blood..

?You're like a queen and beautiful

11:11 AM

Monday, June 15, 2009

yawns.
she refuses to admit that she like monshin.
tsktsk
beware.
all the monshin pics here..
the link she give de.
(andsomeonestillsaythatshedon'tlikemonshin)
(AND SHE EVEN FOUND A MONSHIN FIC.!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
HOW AMAZING IS THIS.

[AH. THIS IS DAMN CUTE.!]

[er. this is just cute :D]

[what's ashin doing? o.o]

[ah so cute<3]>

[HAHAHAH. MONSTER IS HIS GIRLFRIEND YEAH. NOT DANDANMEI.(nor jane)]

[O:]

[MONSHIN. MONSHIN. MONSHIN.]

OKAY. MONSHIN ROCKS.

AND IM NOT GONNA UPLOAD PICTURES OF ASHIN HIM SELF.

even if she says that monshin is not enough.

MUAHAHHA.

?You're like a queen and beautiful

2:24 AM

Sunday, June 14, 2009

i hate fanfics

especially non-rated EUNHAE

my god.

they just stop me from doing my homework.

I AM SUPPOSED TO FINISH LIT AND SCIENCE, AND THINK ABOUT HISTORY TODAY.

BUT.

THANKS TO THOSE REALLY AWESOME FICS AND AMAZING AUTHORS.

I HAVEN EVEN FINISHED ONE CHARACTER IN LIT.

DAMNNNNNNNNNNN.

SOMEONE STOP ME FROM GOING TO LJ, SJ-WORLD, WINGLIN(i don't really go there anymore.. its yunjae :/ and i dont read yunjae anymore. O: coz EUNHAE is my OTP now :/)

yeah.

okay

i shall DO HOMEWORK NOW.

?You're like a queen and beautiful

1:32 PM

Friday, June 12, 2009

OH GOD MY LEGS HURT LIKE WTFFFFFFFF.

THIS IS WORSE THAN 2.4

now i have 3 blisters.

they hurt like wtfz.

it was the start of the torture the moment i stepped out of the house.

NO.

the moment i decided to wear my wedges.

and i had to run for 10 mins.

with it on.

and so yes.

i met gen at the mrt station.

and then got to er. dobby gaut(how do you spell it)

and yeah.

then little india.

and met jyeting and peck yee

and we are efficient people okay.

finished in less than an hour.

yeah and then went to plaza sing.

and watched ghost of girlfriends past.

its funny

HAHA.

yeah.

net jeraldine and her friend. yeah

and then THANKS TO GENEVIEVE.

we had to walk like shit.

from raffles place to cheenatown ?!

okay its really far.

then to her mum's office buliding.

and then

all the way to the vegetarian restaurant.

uh non-airconditioned restaurant.

lol.

yeah sometime we went to bunk.

and the people there are damn pro.

yeah.

and then went to take neoprints.

took alot.

HAHA.

yeah and then went to city hall

and meeet up with my mum

and then we walked all the way to suntec convection blah

and bought the weird gps thingy.

gah. my legs HURT LIKE WHAT THE FUCK.

I SWEAR I'LL NOT WEAR MY WEDGES WHEN IM GOING OUT ON DAYS LIKE THIS ANYMORE.

I SWEAR I WONT

AND I'LL BRING A WHOLE PACKET OF PLASTERS ALONG.

HAHAHA.

you people have no idea how many i used in one day.

now my bag is full of plasters. that thingy yeah okay whatever.

yes.

MY LEGS HURT LIKE WHAT THE FUCK.

end of story.

?You're like a queen and beautiful

9:16 PM

Thursday, June 11, 2009

right.

i finished watching super junior mystery six.

its was scary okay.

that stupid black eyes ghost.

yeah.

i finished at 1++

and omfg

i KNEW i 100% will have nightmare.

and i did.

right.

this is how it goes.

before term 2 ends.

lin kai li.( yes. lin kai li. she's the ghost in my dream. bleh)

she went like if you continue talking and blah, she'll call my parents and what shit.

yeah, so.

in my dream, mt and me were sitting together in mpr 1

yeah and then we went for art lesson.

then for no reason we were running down the stairs.

and apparently, lin kai li is chasing us.

HAHA.

yeah. and so she chased us down all the way to outside the susan lim the office, what is it called, pe. something.

right anyway.

yeah

and then she said i copy homework.

wtff.

how on earth do you copy homework for ART?!

HAHA.

yeah, so i said that.

and she went like

"STOP TALKING BACK"

yeahyeah.

so she scold and scold and scold.

and somehow i cried.

which is impossible, coz trini never cries in school that is.

i never ever cried in school for the 7 years and 6 months in st. nicks.

HAHA.

i know i rock.

yeah and somehow my dad walked pass.

and lin kai li told him.

but he never scold.

and instead he scolded lin kai li.

wheee~

ahahaha.

it felt damndamn real i tell you.

yes.

lin kai li sucks.

?You're like a queen and beautiful

12:19 PM

Sunday, June 7, 2009

right.

i have been suju-ing since idk when until now.

there is something very wrong with me.

gah, i think sj-world is gonna keep in the suju fandom.

i think i read too much hanchul [R] fics. TEEHEE.

hanchul is damn hot.

and i think i shld stick to kyumin and yewook.

EUNHAE FTW!

i found yi xuan's eunhae one shot.

do you know how shocking it is to find your junior's fanfic on er an official fansite.

i hope i didn't make a mistake.

xuanniex_love teuk.

100% her lah.

yeah right.

so i commented without mentioning my name but its really obvious.

ahahaha.

ryeowook is so sweet.

his cy!

damn sweeeeeet <33

i shall spend the whole day tomoro suju-ing again.

whee~

suju<3

i should not be sleeping so late.

i shall go now.

nitez <3

?You're like a queen and beautiful

2:52 AM

Saturday, June 6, 2009

there are types of many type of ppl in the world.
1)tall, pretty, skinny
2)tall, pretty, fat
3)tall, ugly, skinny
4)tall,ugly, fat
5)short, pretty, skinny
6)short, pretty, fat
7)short, ugly, skinny
8)short, ugly, fat

i just so happen to fall under number 8.
i see alot of number 3 around though :/
but at least they are tall and skinny :/

i didn't go for tuition today.
whee~
ahahahahaha.
i slept at 3.10 AM and woke up at 9 AM
i swear i hate 牙关.
stupid vibrator.
(note: i am really pure and innocent people.)

yeah. thats all, it's been a boring day.
i should really start my homework soon..

i love sj-world <3
♥・~

?You're like a queen and beautiful

8:54 PM

wheee~

i'm still awake now.

hahahaha.

and the only reason im blogging now is because winglin just died on me.

just as im enjoying the fic.

and yoosu progressed.

and then it died on me.

how nice.

i cant believe im wide awake now.

today, later at 1.30PM got tuition..

i dont wanna go.

shall i pon again.

ahaha.

im like waiting for winglin to stop dying on me and i have nothing to say.

lets see.

you people know i really love ryeowook.

yeah.

i feel like im a really bad fan.

i loveD dbsk when their fourth album came out.

and then when everything ended.

i sorta stopped loving them that much.

and then sorry sorry came out.

and i started loving suju ; ryeowook.

and i wonder if the same thing is gonna happen after all its you promotional activities.

i wonder if im gonna be able to stay as a suju fan, a long-term fan.

i got over kimbum yeah.

told you people it will be over after i finish bof.

then i'll stop seeing him.

recently, i've been thinking that kibum...

he's like making use of suju.

making use of suju to get famous and gain popularity.

and now that he's famous, he leaves suju to pursue his acting career.

he's not even in its you.

after all 12 members put in so much effort in the third album.

he's just what attending acting lessons, acting for some show?

if he wants to go solo, he can be like seungri what.

go solo but still attend bigbang stuff.

kibum is not attending anything at all.

why kibum why.

and now 13 is becoming 12.

and then so many ppl in forums already stop thinking that kibum is part of suju.

watching those old videos.

kibum don't seem close to the other members actually.

he's still part of suju right..

i want 13 back.

right.

enough.

i hope winglin is alive now.

15 more days!

heeeheeee.

?You're like a queen and beautiful

1:37 AM

Thursday, June 4, 2009

update update :D

im getting really bored.

maybe i should start my homework.

and start waking up earlier.

and not sleep for 12 and a 1/2 hour.

like some pig.

yesterday's math remedial was really dumb.

and then mt's teacher the seet person i think.

drag the damn lesson for 45 mins.

wtf.

then gen and i sit at the specs stand listening to bof songs.

ahaha.

she changed thanks to bof.

lol.

but it seriously feels wrong.

ahahaha.

right.

went to mt's house after that.

ahaha.

they played xbox 360.

guitar hero.

the drums are cool

and then for no reason mt changed the channel to barney.

and i seriously think barney is some 怪物.

until like p6 i heard the song.

'barney is a dinosaur...'

then i know its a dinosaur wth.

rightright.

and gen was in great pain.

cramps

i never had cramps before.

ahaha.

wheeee!~

then went up to mt's room

she didnt want us to go up coz she ASSUMED that her brother don't like her frends.

but actually he only didnt like one.

LOL.

her brother is really gdlooking.

he should take off those glasses.

yeah.

right.

gen went home shortly after we went up.

and then we went to shop and save to buy chips and chocolate after sending gen to bus-stop.

then went up and watched parodies.

HAHA.

i can never stop laughing watching the its you parody.

NORA GO.

LOL.

ahaha.

yeah then i went home.

then my cousin's bdae.

not like i like her alot.

but the ice-cream cake rocked.

it is cookies and cream ice cream cake!!

ahah.

the dinner was great.

then i slept at 11.15 and woke up 11.30 today.

MUAHAH.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOOCHUN!

(even though i don't love you that much anymore.)

?You're like a queen and beautiful

5:32 PM

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANE :D

not like you are gonna see this anyway.

oh yeah. when you are back.

okay.

thanks for always kicking my chair in term 1

i really appreciate it you know.

and thanks for the mayday concert dvd that i borrowed 3 times

AHAHAHAHA.

what else.

nothing i suppose.

right.

you haven't thank me for that flower.

be honoured coz i only gave you.

coz i cant find any other person to give.

and i didn't buy any.

okayokay.

whatever.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

you old thing.

you are FOURTEEN.

ASHIN DON'T EVEN KNOW THAT YOU EXIST.
THEREFORE HE DOESN'T LOVE YOU.

COZ HE LOVES MONSTER!

SEE THE WAY THEY SMILE AT EACH OTHER! :D

WHEE MONSHIN FTW.

?You're like a queen and beautiful

11:12 AM

Monday, June 1, 2009

whee~

i love this blogskin.

i chose this skin for my brother's blog too. ahahahaha.

and his title is : this is a really gay skin, my sister chose it for me. >.>

tsktsk.

help you choose and make it preeetty still say me tsk.

wellwell.

so now i have the same blogskin as my dear brother [pukes]

greeen house sucks. big time.

wtf lah one week must go back school for at least 2 hours to make props?!

shldnt we be really environmental friendly and save the earth huh seniors.

recycle lah last year that one lah.

right last year don't have.

last last year!

oh well.

at least i can get out of this place.

my dear home.

the OSTs for BOF are really nice (:

i downloaded all. ahaha

hear that reallly nice song?

ahaha.

i love my blogskin+blogsong.

wheee~

trini wants a colourful holiday!

right. i think im going msia again.

when my brother POP.

im bored with nothing to do now ):

?You're like a queen and beautiful

6:10 PM